A Simple Story

I Wish---

I wish----

I wish I could have a normal family.
You know, family gatherings, family reunions, family vacations... The good, happy stuff.
Instead we have... Family court dates and police phone calls...
We've been involved with Children services.
I don't want to leave. I want to stay with my mom. I love her. I've already lost one parent, I'm not ready to lose the other.
She doesn't abuse us! She yells at us and puts us down, but nothing we can't handle. Nothing physical.

I wish I didn't have to see my father hanging from the garage rafters in my dreams.
I wish that didn't haunt me.
I wish I didn't think that was my fault. I pushed him too far that night. If I would've just stopped asking them maybe I'd have my father still. My mother yells at me when I say that. She says it was his own fault, his own doing. I disagree.