Sa Isang Sulyap

Ika-dalawampu't Isang Sulyap

Ika-dalawampu't Isang Sulyap

"Summer! You're drunk!" I tried to kiss him on his cheeks but he's trying to push me away from him. Nah nah! I'm not drunk. I just want to enjoy the party. Is that bad? Was that forbidden? And what is he doing here?

"Calyx Binth Song. I didn't expect that you're going to be here. Why? Are you going to push me to Erick?! Oh please! Part one's done. Let me cherish this part two event." Tatawa-tawa kong sabi. The floor is moving and so as the people. What is this? An earthquake? Kuya Cabi has it's intensity! Laugh laugh laugh here. Funny! Coz' I never get drunk ngayon lang? I can't feel anything except of my palpitating heart! It's all over my body and face! Jeez!

"Summer! Stop it!" he's trying to halt me up but I can't do it myself. I can't control any of parts of my body, it all are moving uncontrollably.

"Summer." Humarap ako sa taong kararating lang. Saglit akong natigilan at tumino. Para akong mabilis pa sa alas kwatrong tumigil sa ginagawa ko. But still I can't see anything but myself getting beaten with disappointing words by my father.

"What is happening to you young lady?" Hindi ko rin alam. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong nangyari but I am left out a while ago. Sa kagustuhan kong magsaya kaya ako nagkaganito. Gusto kong kalimutan yung nakita ko at narinig ko kahapon.

"You're going to ignore everything now Nico?!" I'm currently roaming around the hotel since ayokong makisali sa party ng mga wild kong ka-batch mates sa pent house kung saan cine-celebrate namin yung graduation party. Yup, tapos na. It's all done. Highschool is just a part of my history now, my past, but I'll always remember this and the good people who believed and loved me.

"Jhustine, calm down—"

"No, I can't Nico! Hindi ko kaya! I want you to play with her! Not to fall! See the difference?! Playing is not falling for her! Are you that stupid?!" I can hear Jhustine crying. Nagtago ako sa likod ng pader. Hindi ko ginustong makinig. But this is about my man! Is that bitch trying to seduce her or what?

"Jhustine. Alam mo nung una na gusto kong gawin 'to because in the first place you're my bestfriend. Kaya lang nagkasubuan na. Nakonsensiya ako, nakokonsensiya na ko. Ayoko nang lokohin si Summer. Itigil na natin 'to." Lokohin ako? Halos sumabog na yung dibdib ko dahil sa biglang bilis na pagtibok ng puso ko.

Rinig kong pagak na tumawa si Jhustine. "Really? Why? I know you Nico. Tinatamad ka na naman no? Ikaw talaga tamad ka kahit kailan. Don't worry. I'm your best friend and I'm here to help you—"

"Why are you doing this, Jhustine?!"

"'coz I know in the first place, I am the one who you really love. You did what I want you to do kasi mahal mo ko. Not that Summer. Now, I'm telling you, I love you Nico. Ikaw na ang mahal ko at hindi na si Erick. Aren't you happy? I can now finally see you. Hindi mo na ba ako mahal? At talagang pinalitan na ko ni Summer diyan sa puso mo?" Rinig ko yung mabigat na pagbuntong hininga ni Nico. Hindi ko na maintindihan kung anong nangyayari sa'kin.

Ang sakit. Ano 'to? Naloko na naman ba ko? Nagpakatanga na naman ako sa isang taong hindi naman talaga ako kayang panindigan. He don't love me. He never did. Iyon na lang siguro yung nakatatak sa utak ko ngayon. I'm insanely mad, gusto kong mabaliw. Gusto kong paniwalain yung sarili ko. Nico loves me, hindi niya ko kayang lokohin. Mamaya nga niyan iiwan niya si Jhustine para sa'kin.

I can still take that. Kaya ko pang tanggapin na mahal niya na ko ngayon. 'diba Jhustine said a while ago na mahal ako ni Nico? Na nahulog na siya. I can still take that.

"Jhus.."

Say no Nico. Please.

Please tell her that you'll leave her alone. Ako ang pipiliin mo.