Have We Gone Too Far? [Slash]

Chapter 35

  Chapter 35

  “I can’t believe I just did that,” he smiled at me.

  “I can’t either,” I mumbled, still in shock from what he just did. He kissed me! “I didn’t know you liked guys,” I whispered as a wave came passed, making us both bop up and down a little.

  “Nor did I,” he sighed, running his hand through his soaking wet hair.

  “Do you regret it?” I asked him in a serious voice as we treaded water to keep our heads above it.

  “I don’t think so,” he mumbled.

  He wanted that and he doesn’t want to take it back. Oh my God that must mean he likes me. Bloody hell I didn’t see that coming. I know I’ve wanted him to like me the way I like him but now that he does it sort of feels weird.

  “Do you feel alright?” I asked him.

  “Yeah!” he shouted as a wave came and crashed against us. “We should probably get back on the beach though. I’d rather not get lost at sea!”

  “Good idea!” I shouted over to him.

  As we swam back to the shore I started feeling really weird. It was like I was forgetting something, maybe someone and it was kind of important. God, don’t you hate it when that happens? You have something remembered but then you completely forget about it. Man that’s annoying.

  “Is there anything important happening at school today?” I asked Zander to see if he had any ideas about what I could be forgetting.

  “Don't think so,” he muttered as he got up out of the water.

  Wow he looked good wet. His shirt was sticking tightly to his body and it was almost see through now. He looked amazing. Okay, you know how great he looks now so stop staring. Zan gave me an odd look which quickly made me move my gaze; that was so embarrassing.

  “Sorry,” I whispered making him laugh at me a little.

  “It’s alright,” he blushed.

  “You’re going a little red Zan,” I teased him.

  “So are you,” he smiled at me.

  Great! Now I'm blushing at him; this is so confusing. It wasn't that long ago when I hated him but now for some reason I think I'm crushing on him. This is so weird; it doesn’t make any sense at all.

  We walked back over to where we were sitting on the beach before all of that happened and sat down exactly how we were before as if nothing had changed in the past minutes.

  Staring up at the sky, I started thinking. I needed to work out what’s going to happen now. Do I stay with Cole or do I get with Zander? Does Zan seriously want to be with me or will it just be something that’d last a few weeks at the most? I wish I knew.

  What if he doesn’t really know what he’s doing? Maybe he doesn’t understand relationships properly. It would just be a mistake if him and I became more than friends.

  “Have you ever liked a guy before?” I asked him.

  “No, not really,” he whispered.

  There we go! He has little experience. He’s just confused; he doesn’t really like me, it’s just that I'm his first close friend, that’s what he told me earlier.

  Wait a sec; why do I keep finding reasons to just be friends with Zan. I like him don’t I? And surly there must be some reasons to leave Cole, right? I thought about it for a moment. There aren’t any. Sure he’s my teacher and stuff but that doesn’t matter. He loves me and I love him... so why am I with Zander? Why did we kiss?