The Boy With The Blue Eyes; Phan

I Think It's An Improvement.

Phil's P.O.V

I look outside the window.
It's been a week since I made Dan leave.
He didn't need to explain, it was all pretty obvious.

I groan, and shut the blinds.

The apartment isn't loud anymore. It's quiet, more than it was.
Sometimes I go into Dan's room and get scared when I see there's nothing in it, but then I remember why and I don't feel as bad.

I eat breakfast alone every morning.
I eat lunch alone every afternoon.
I eat dinner alone every night.

I play Mario Kart alone.
I practically do everything alone because there is no one there to do anything with.

"I think it's an improvement."
I'm lying.

What? I don't miss him.
Pftt as if.
Stop looking at me like that!

I don't!
It's just weird that no one responds when I ask, "What time is it?" Or "Where are we ordering from?"

I mean. I don't mind.
I'm gonna say it.

I don't care that Dan is gone.
Because I don't.
It really doesn't bother me at all.
Sure the apartment walls look dull but what if I like dull?

I sigh and grab my keys.
I'm going to go grocery shopping before I run out of energy to do so.

I walk to the place and as I'm going, someone familiar passes by.
Dan.

My eyes widen, and I look back.
But it's not Dan.
It's someone else.

I continue walking towards the store, and I swear I passed about 8 people who I thought were Dan, but they turned out to be random people.

I walk into the store and start looking for whatever I want, because I don't have Dan telling me I can't because 'we don't need it.'.
Pfft.

I'm stopped by a few fans, who ask for pictures.
"Where's Dan?" One girl asks.

I fumble with my words, and I try to find another excuse.
"Um.. He's not here. Sorry." They nod, and walk off.

I can't tell them. I still need to make videos like everything is okay, and so does he.
There won't be gaming videos, or collabs. Or mentioning of his name.
But what about the live shows?
Probably won't have one.

I look through isles and isles of food, and try to find my way around the people.
I walk, and see someone way too familiar to be Dan.

Jessie.

He notices me looking at him and starts to run away.
I leave my trolley in my isle and go after him.
"Jessie!" I yell.
He reaches the end of the wall, and sees me coming towards him.
He looks for an escape but there isn't one.
I go up to him and he flinches a bit.

"What do you want, Phil." He scoffs.
"So what's going on with you and my boyfriend?" I say.
I tense, I called Dan my boyfriend.

I shrug it off. "Oh you're still together? I thought he left you for me already." He smirks.

"Jessie, what is wrong with you? You can't just barge into our relationship and ruin it!" I yell.
"Who says I can't? He likes me! Not you!" He yells back with devious eyes.

I step back, and start walking away back to my trolley.
"You don't know where he is, do you?" He calls.

I stop. I don't answer.
"He's not an innocent virgin anymore!" He laughs and calls again.

I shut my eyes and bite my lip to the point where I draw blood.
I wipe the tears that are close to falling out from my eyes and walk out of the store with my food as soon as I pay.

I walk home, and lock myself in my room for the rest of the day.