everywhere i look, i'm only reminded of him•
yoongi;
i run out of my apartment building with a cigarette hanging from my lips. it's not lit, but the feeling of it between my teeth gives me comfort. i speedily walk down the next few blocks, needing the fresh air to fill my lungs, rather than the intoxicating smoke i would normally let capacitate them.
i run a hand through my freshly dyed hair as i keep my head down. i don't want anyone to see the tears threatening to spill out of my eyes. reaching my desired destination, i throw the cigarette to the ground. i walk into the building, heading straight to the elevators. i practically bump into somebody as the doors open and i go inside.
soon enough, i'm up on the roof, my feet dangling over the edge.
my mind wanders as i try to forget about this morning. i had been woken up by a dream that was too realistic for my liking. and to try and get my mind off of it, i came here. this roof holds special meaning to me and the fact that that jimin kid wanted to interrupt that just infuriated me.
but instead of thinking about that, i drift off into a fantasy where i actually let my body slip from this edge.
but i don't.
i don't jump.
i don't fall.
i don't let go.
instead, i let more tears out.
i came here to forget about him, yet everywhere i look around here, i'm just reminded of him.
when i look up and see the sun, i'm reminded of his smile; when i look out over all the buildings, i'm reminded of his want to leave this town; when i look down at the pavement below me, i'm only reminded of the last time i saw him.
i was up here, and he was down there. and i didn't-- couldn't stop him.
yet, here i am now, wishing to have the same fate.
i turn around to get up, for my tear-stained cheeks were becoming cold from the brisk air. i start towards the door and exit the building altogether.
when i return to my building, i remember taehyung. he's so sweet and he loves the idea of being my friend. maybe he could help me get my mind off this.
i stop by the lobby's bathroom to freshen up a bit before i go up the stairs to my floor. when i get up there, rather than grabbing my keys and going home, i stop in front of taehyung's door. i knock and await an answer.
but when i get one, surprise fills me.
taehyung said he was visiting his boyfriend the other day, right before he mentioned jimin. and now, jimin is opening taehyung's door?
"oh, y-yoongi," jimin smiles.
"u-uh hey, jimin, right?" i reply.
"yeah," jimin looks down with sad eyes.
"i'm sorry for interrupting you and taehyung, i-i'll just go ho--"
"yoongi-hyung! oh, don't worry you weren't interrupting anything," taehyung assures.
"yeah, but i don't want you to miss out on time with your boyfriend, so i-i figured i'd just go," i say, ready to turn around.
"boyfriend? my boyfriend isn't here," taehyung laughs.
"wait, y-yoongi? did you think i was dating taehyung?" jimin asks.
i stop in my tracks and blush deeply. i turn around, "y-you're not?"
"no!" both of them shout.
"oops, sorry, i just assumed since--"
"yoongi-hyung, come inside. we can all hang out and talk that way," taehyung says.
"n-no, i don't want to--"
"nonsense, sit down," taehyung insists. so i abide.
jimin closes the door behind me and we all gather in the living room.
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a/n: awkward cut-off but oh wellpoor yoongs tho.. his crippling depression is making me emo
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