Crying Silently (Becstin)

Chapter Eighty-two

Austin's POV

Alex told her.

She's upset and I get why...but I was drunk. It was a one time thing and now the girl won't leave me alone.

Now, Zia will never forgive me.

She was hurt. I am to.

I hate my stupid mistakes, and I just don't know what to do.

She's moved out of our room and and is in her own. I hate it. Sleeping by myself, it sucks.

I want my Zia back...

Zia's POV

Told you he didn't love you.

I tried blinking the tears away. I have to stop crying...he's not worth it.

Kill yourself already Zia.

I really have thought about it.

I only stayed alive for him. He was everything.

Your stupid.

I know I am, really I do.

Get up. Grab your blade and do it then. Don't be scared.

What about Robert and Alex?

They don't care either. Do it!

I wiped my eyes and got up. This can't be to hard, can it?

I mean he cheated.

He doesn't care.

I opened my bathroom door slowly.

Calm down. You can do it. It'll be all over before you know it.

I can do this. Just slit in the right place and you'll be gone. No more worries, right?

Right.

I grabbed my razor setting it on the floor raising my foot slowly.

Can I really do this?

You can, now hurry!

I took a deep breath and stomped on it.

Plastic flew across the room in different places.

Now pick up the blade and cut straight down.

I did exactly that. I picked up the blade shakily putting it on my arm, but instead of cutting side to side...I cut up and down.

Goodbye world, you win.