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It is currently 2:35am

I am so stressed out over getting sick.

I swear it's been worse the past week.

Like, last year worse.

I can't handle it the same way I could.

And I'm at my moms and I feel so .... helpless and.... optionless?

My mom ..... she used to be better with my anxiety. But lately she just says the same things

"You always are nervous. Get used to it"

"Is there anything new? You know what to do"

"There's nothing I can do"

"Go to the bathroom or do something"

"Stop waking me up. I need to sleep. Your being selfish"

I understand how shitty anxiety can be for others around me too.

And how she's had to deal with this for years.

But so have I, mom.

And I'm the one who freaking terrified right now, crying, and tired as ever, at two am, with a huge test tomorrow. And my dad isn't answering the texts I'm not supposed to be sending him.

Yet she wonders why I do that?

I'm exhausted