Betrayed By Fate

Chapter 27 | Heated

Song : How to love
It kind of represents Arian in some way
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(Arian's POV)

I have told him...

He now knows who I am, what I am...

And I regret it deeply but there is no going back.

"Jake..you once said that you like the idea of immortality-" I took the silver dagger in my room from the floor, Jake grabbed my hand forcefully.

"Arianrhod LET. THIS .DAGGER .GO" his words sharp and demanding, his eyes a dark blue, almost black colour, yet they showed so much fear.

My loud laugh echoed in the room "I just practically told you that I am immortal and a Bookman, and you are worried that I am going to hurt myself? "

"You really are an idiot hahaha"

His grip was still tight around my wrist. I swiftly threw the dagger onto my other hand, I didn't lose a second to again let the silver pierce ,my skin but this time my arm's .

"WH-" I cut him off with lifting my arm on the same level of his eyes, the next second the wound closed, his eyes wide staring at the place of the wound.

"What do you think is immortality?" I answered my own question "immortality is eternal life, the ability to live forever"

"But do you really think it is that simple? All wounds and diseases just healing without a price? Everything in this world has a price even immortality "

he stood stiff not being able to utter a word.

"I told you before, I died, the moon goddess killed me over 600 years ago. Death was the price for being a Bookman, for immortality but this is not all.."

"Immortality is just fast regeneration, that fast that wounds and diseases don't have an effect on the body, but in return the regeneration causes immense pain"

"Pain? " he asked, he still is concerned about ME?

"You could compare it to the feeling of getting all of your nerve cells burned inside your body"

His large hands cupped my face looking me into my silver eyes.

"ARE YOU OKAY? DOES IT STILL HURT?" His concerned voice catching me off guard, I gritted my teeth in fustration.

Why is he worried? Why does he care...

"I can control the rate of regeneration and slow it down to the one of a normal werewolf, but if my body comes into a situation where I would die even with werewolf regeneration, it speeds up the rate"

"After Lily died, I didn't have a reason to live, the moon goddess knew that, and because of that she punished me with immortality-"

He wrapped his arms around me pulling me into his embrace, he patted my head lightly.

"You lost someone important to death, you experienced the pain. You can never have someone important to you, you can't let anyone come near you or you have to watch again how someone you love dies "

"Everyone you learn to love dies in front of your eyes and you can't do anything about it, a cruel punishment I must say"

Bullseye.

He got it on the point, how pathetic and weak I am.

"We Bookman have the job to document history, you could say I have a photographic memory, but is way more than that"

"Because of that you seemed to like the library so much.." he muttered, I pushed him away in shock.

"Do you have your memory back?" I asked frantically.