Living My Dream (Book 2)

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Roxies pov
It has been three days since Chester and I had our falling out, it was better that we kept our distance from one another. Jacoby and I are still talking to eachother but as friends only. Surprisingly I have beeb doing okay, I gave great thought to what Jacoby had to me about taking control of my own future, and I am excited to return home to Cali and see where my next career move will take me. I will miss traveling with PR they are a great bunch of guys and Jacoby will remain a very special friend but i need to take my career to the next level and tour with other bands to get my name out there. With all of the things going on with everyone Jacoby decided that I need to take some time away to clear my head. I will not be joining them on the 2nd leg of the tour overseas. Tomorrow when they leave for Germany I am heading back to Cali. I will finish up the work I have done for them already and do their last show when they get back to Cali. After that my contract will be fulfilled and I am free to leave with my next client if need be. Jacoby talked to the manager and got him to agree to all of this. I know in my heart he was sincere about having feelings towards me and I can't think him enough for this break. Seeing chester is hard and If im ever going to be okay and move on I have to be away from him. Tonights show should be an amazing one, apparently Shaddix wrote a new song and he decided he was going to play it tonight before We went our seperate ways at the airport. I couldn't wait to hear what his brilliant mind came up with. I stayed at the hotel while Linkin Park was on stage, I couldn't handle watching Chester perform tonight. As much as I would have liked to, I didn't have the strength knowing this would probably be the last time I would see him. I will say my goodbyes tonight at the airport before we board our planes. I got my things together, got ready, and went out the door to the venue. Almost 10 I thought when I arrive outside the gate of the amphitheater. Somehow I still managed to make it in while LP was still on stage. Maybe it was an encore I don't know but for some reason its was 5 after a PR wasn't on stage.

"With You"

[Mike Shinoda:]
I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy

And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
And even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant and I can't bring you back

[Chester Bennington:]
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

[(Chester Bennington) Mike Shinoda:]
(I'm with you)
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
(with you)
You
Now I see even when I close my eyes

[Mike Shinoda:]
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor, the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't real

Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
So even though you're close to me
You're still so distant and I can't bring you back

[Chester Bennington:]
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

[(Chester Bennington) Mike Shinoda:]
(I'm with you)
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
(with you)
You
Now I see even when I close my eyes
(with you)
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
(with you)
You
Now I see even when I close my eyes

[Chester Bennington:]
No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we've come
I, I can't wait to see tomorrow

[(Chester Bennington) Mike Shinoda:]
(with you)
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
(with you)
You
Now I see even when I close my eyes
(with you)
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
(with you)
You
Now I see even when I close my eyes

Tears slowly flowed from my eyes when I realized what this song was about. All this time we had been on tour I had never heard them sing it and now tonight of all nights they did. I wonder when they wrote this song?
I pulled my self together after they got off stage and PR started their set. Jacoby was a very good frontman very entertaining, he came out and had the crowd going crazy. After playing a few songs he took the time to speak before starting another.
"This one is a new one guys!" He stated before starting it."It was written while we travled on this tour, and I would like to dedicate it to very good friend of mine!" He shouted making the crowd cheer. "Roxie this ones for you!"

"I Almost Told You That I Loved You"

You know I love it when your down on your knees
And I'm a junkie for the way that you please
you shut me up when you swallow me down
My back to the wall you're going to town

I almost told you that I loved you
Thank god I didn't because it would've been a lie
I say the damnedest things, when your on top of me
I almost told you that I loved you

I hate to say it but it has to be said
You look so fragile as I fuck with your head
I know it shouldn't but it's getting me off
If sex is the drug then what is the cost

I almost told you that I loved you
Thank god I didn't because it would've been a lie
I say the damnedest things, when your on top of me
I almost told you that I loved you

I'm not the one that you want, I'm not the one that you need
My love is like a fucking disease
You can give me your hand, you can make your demands
I'm the hardest mother fucker to please

Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I almost told you that I loved you
Thank god I didn't because it would've been a lie
I say the damnedest things, when your on top of me
I almost told you that I loved you

[repeat chorus]