Not So Bad After All (BWWM)(EDITING)

🌻Chapter Forty-Nine🌹 ❗Clean❗

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🌻JAYDEN POV🌻

"Ugh!" Rose sighed as she flopped down on my couch. "I'm exhausted".

I sat down beside her on the couch. "Me too" I kicked my shoes off and then helped her with hers. "I desperately need a shower"

"I gotta pee. I'll start your shower for you"

"Your the best" I told her and kissed her hand before she stood up.

"Don't you forget it" she then disappeared upstairs.

I went into the kitchen to get a snack. 

Only one honey bun Jay. You only need one. I told myself. Of course,r I ended up getting two anyway...

Once I got upstairs, I noticed that Rose was sitting on the bed texting and I could hear the shower running from the bathroom.

"Mom says goodnight and she loves you" she told me.

"Tell her the same. I just remembered that we have to get her gifts and stuff for the baby shower tomorrow. Ask her if she needs us to pick up anything else" I took off my shirt and threw it in the dirty clothes hamper.

"You know she's gonna have a list of things she needs last minute tomorrow, like always" I heard her say as I got into the shower.

It felt great to get in the shower. I needed to feel the hot water on my skin. I shortened my shower to twenty minutes tonight because I knew Rose was tired. She apparently has trouble falling asleep without me now.

I cut the water off, tied a towel around my waist and left the bathroom room.

Rose stared at me with just the right amount of lust in her eyes causing desire to bubble up inside me.

"Come here" I smirked.

She approached me and touched my still damp chest. I kissed her deeply and unzipped her dress from the back. It fell off her shoulders and she stopped kissing me to smile. She went into the bathroom and started the shower.

Minutes later she came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around her body.

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🌹ROSE POV🌹

Jayden sat on the bed on his laptop. He looked up at me and a slight smirk appeared on his face. I went over to him and stood between his legs making him put the laptop aside. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he instantly wrapped his arms around my waist. 

"Can I be honest with you?" I asked him.

"Of course"

"You've apologized to me a lot for our past and each time I felt like it was completely unnecessary because to me, I'd already forgiven you, but regardless, it was appreciated every time" I confessed. "But when you said it in front of everyone today it was different. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders that I didn't realize I was carrying" I shook my head. "I think maybe it's because most of our fights and embarrassing arguments happened in front of people at school" I sighed. "l don't know why that mattered" I closed my eyes as I cupped his face. "But thank you... again".

I felt very overwhelmed with emotion. I could feel myself letting all of my remaining walls down. The love I feel for him scared the shit out of me. I could feel my eyes water against my own will and I felt so silly for crying.

Jay pushed my hair away from my face and kissed me.

"That was something I needed to do. It was the nail in the coffin to our toxic past. I wanna start my life with you with no past baggage. I wanna grow and build with you, you understand?"

Even he was getting emotional... His eyes were red and gazing into mine.

I nodded my head, "There's not enough ways to say I love you anymore" I told him "Let me show you"

I untucked my towel and let it fall to the floor. My entire body, naked and exposed to him.

His eyes scanned every inch of me that was visible to him, "Rose... Your fucking beautiful..."

I kissed him and he responded instantly by deepening the kiss. I climbed on him, straddling his lap. I could feel his hands on the small of my bare back, making my entire body tingle with need. Jay laid back on his back as I continued to straddle him.

His hands instantly went to my ass, squeezing and rubbing it like he'd usually do but this time, it meant something different. He was hard as soon as I dropped my towel. Now it pressed up against my naked middle, which felt great to me. I bit and sucked his neck as I continued to grind myself against him, earning a few grunts from Jay. I returned my lips to his but he broke it once more.

"Rose, wait" he breathed heavily.

"Why?" I continued to kiss him.

"Babe..." he groaned after he kissed me back.

I broke our kiss and stared down at him seriously. "I want you... I want to do this"

"Are you sure?" He didn't look too sure himself. "I don't want you to regret this later"

"I've wanted this for a while now. I need to have you like this".

He sat up right with me still straddling him.  I could tell that he was still hesitant. I knew he was over thinking this. He has always been very careful not to go too far with me, which I always appreciated... But right now, I didn't want him to be careful with me. I wanted him to have all over of me. I was ready for this.

I placed my hand on his cheek and caressed it, "I want this", I kissed his cheek. "I'm ready", I kissed his jaw. "I need this", I kissed his neck and licked it the way I knew he loved.

He said nothing else. He returned his lips to mine and I hungrily kissed him back. His hand found one of my Breast and he fondled it gently.

He stood up, holding me up with him and placed me down on the middle of the bed. I laid on my back and welcomed him back between my legs again.

Jayden sat up on his knees and just gazed down at me. It made me feel a little self conscious,  not knowing what he was thinking.

"What's wrong?" I asked feeling momentarily shy.

"Absolutely nothing. Your so beautiful" his voice low and husky like never before. "I wanna remember you like this, giving yourself to me"

I felt myself blush and the last bit of shyness disappear.  I didn't feel insecure anymore. I felt sexy, confident... hungry for my man.