Artificial Intelligence (Ai Mikaze Fan Fiction)

AI: 17

Not only once but twice already did he had to go and smash my heart into bits. I only admired him from afar before, but now that I’m only a step closer to him, I fell even more. As idols, we are forbidden to fall in love, yet I broke the rules for the sake of my feelings. It’s not my intentions, but it’s hard to stop it either.

He’s been cold and harsh that it makes me want to give up, but there are also times that I can’t understand him for being so sweet. I haven’t forgotten a single time that we’ve been together. At the balcony, the first time I felt the warmth of his hold. The time when he saved me from drowning. This feeling gotten deeper, until the very first time he broke me. Harsh words rained down on me. Tears flowed even though I don’t want it. I tried forgetting, I tried walking at the opposite path, but the mere presence of him by my side is not helping.

Being his junia-aidoru, he has this duty to guide me, and I can’t ignore it. Especially when time gives me obstacles. I’m trying my best to forget but with just one look, all my feelings will come running back to me. He taught me how to waltz, I was so close. I thought I’ve given up, but I gambled my career for him. We talked under the starry night sky. That time I saw him smile… my feelings returned completely, and I thought: I’d give my heart a break and just let myself fall again even if it’s only for myself. He doesn’t have to know and he doesn’t need to love me back. Pathetic of me, I’m clearly a masochist.

Following the flow of my career, I’m now stuck with this bet. He helped me with my studies and for the first time, I felt his care for me. We went out and have fun, it was the best day of my life, I’ve gotten through the pain of yesterday.

An android, I fell for an android. I can still see him as Mikaze. But… I don’t know if I still feel the same way. All the questions were answered :Why? How? What? The only one left is… will I continue or will I not?

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“Tsss.I shouldn’t be thinking of this.” I crumpled the piece of paper where I wrote my pathetic feelings.

‘I should be writing my lyrics, not an essay.’ My thoughts uttered loudly. I let out a sigh and leaned at the tree’s trunk. This is the only place I can find peace. Cecil-san told me that this is the best place to write my lyrics. Under a shade, surrounded by grasses and wild flowers, and water streaming in front of you. But it seems like it’s too peaceful that even the inner most part of me is being jotted.

I have more than a month before the Uta-shin, I should concentrate on that. I flipped my schedule.

‘Drama Musical’ –I still have one activity inserted on my schedule. I didn’t plan on entering Uta-shin so I accepted the job offer. It’s only one shot after all and the actor’s fee is quite tempting.

“Yuki!” I turned around to see Shiori running towards me. I smiled at her.

“Yuki, gome, I haven’t composed a single song yet.” She uttered while panting.

“It’s okay. Don’t rush yourself; we still have more than a month.”

“I promise you I’d write something before this week ends.” She straightened up her posture and looked at the notebook in front of me.

“I see you're already writing your lyrics.” She said with a smile. I held on to the crumpled paper and inserted it to the tree’s root gap.

“A-ah, Yeah… but it seems like I can’t find the right words.” I lied. I wasn’t writing my lyrics, I’m doing a stupid essay- which isn’t on my schedule.

“You can do it. We still have a month right?”

“Ah… Yeah, more than a month.” I corrected her.