the arctic monkeys series [5sos]

10

"Wait"

Jessa pulled away

Breathless

Like she had just ran

Ran away from her fears

And taking newfound risks

Like kissing her best friend.

"What?"

I asked

Confused

As my eyebrows knitted together.

She sighed

Pulling knots out

Of her tangled hair.

"I'm just what he says I am

Aren't I?"

"What do you mean?"

Thoroughly puzzled

I attempted to push a loose strand

Of hair behind her ear

And was startled

When she smacked my hand away.

"He told me I was a slut

And he just broke up with me

And now I'm here kissing you

In the middle of the night.

I'm a slut

Oh, God

I'm a slut.

He was right."

Tears formed once again

For the umpteenth time tonight

That I had lost track

Of how many tears

Fell from her dark green eyes.

"Jessa

I told you.

You're not a slut.

It's not like you're going to

Take me back to your place

So we can have sex

And then leave me the next day.

You wouldn't do that

And I wouldn't let you do that.

You have good intentions

And even if you don't see them

I do."

"But Luke"

She whispered

Clutching her face

In her cold hands.

"I...I..."

"What?"

I pleaded with my eyes

And grasped her hands

Not giving her the chance

To push me away again.

"I don't know if I can."

I pulled her into another hug

And felt the familiar sparks

Travel up my spine

And branch off to my fingertips

As I leaned down

Close to her ear

And whispered

"You might not like me

In the way that I like you

But for now

I'll be your medicine

And help you through this."

To which she replied

"But what if I do like you

In the same way

That you like me

And I always have?"

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idk if this makes sense shit