Butterfly | JJK

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The next day came, Namjoon offered me a ride to school. I agreed and I didn't want to talk about my relationship worries to him as we were just talking about school.

"Did you and Jungkook talk?" Namjoon asked as he was parking to school.

"Y-Yeah, we're fine. I'm just being paranoid." I chuckled, I was laced with lies. But it would be best to keep it secret, it's a stupid topic to talk about anyway.

On our way to the library, we heard greetings from the guys and Namjoon and I stopped to say our greetings back.

Jungkook didn't seem to notice me. I cleared my throat but he was so attached to his phone. Jin nudged him and Jungkook looked up.

"Oh, hi." He spoke before looking back down.

"Hi." I sighed, "Joonie, you can hang out with the guys for a bit. I'm going to get some fresh air before we study." I faked a smile.

"You want company?" He tilted his head, I denied his offer.

Jungkook barely even noticed me, is he losing feelings for me already? After all this time? After the ring? I couldn't help but feel emotional.

I stared at the sunrise as I was by one of the benches at the back of the library exit. I swallowed a lump in my throat.

I felt tears welding up, but I didn't cry. I can't. I can't show I'm weak. But I didn't know how to handle the way Jungkook was neglecting me.

A tear landed on my skirt. I quickly wiped it and sniffed. I heard the door click open, I turned around to see Namjoon. He quickly grew worried and sat beside me.

"Ara, what's wrong?" He frowned. I couldn't stop myself now, I began to sob in my own hands as he questioned what was happening.

"Joonie, I think Jungkook is losing feelings for me. I still love him but he acts like I barely exists. It hurts so much, I know it's stupid to feel this way but I can't help it. I'm scared." I whimpered, I felt him pull me into a hug.

"Jungkook still loves you, maybe something's not going well for him." He sighed.

"But he would tell me, he's just neglecting me." I sobbed even harder. "It's been two days like this and I already feel like crap, imagine how I would feel if this continues. I don't know how to confront him because he would just break up with me."

"Let's go inside, I can talk to him if you want."

"No, please don't." I stopped him, "Let's just study."

"You can't study, Jungkook will just take over your mind. Let's just take this time to talk." He smiled. "I'll treat you to some food to make you feel better, you can rant to me."

I thanked him, he hugged me before we walked to the vending machine. I covered my face as we passed by the guys.

I couldn't help but look at Jungkook, he didn't stare back. I felt empty. I sniffed as Namjoon was buying me some of my favourite drinks and treats.

"Thank you." I whispered, he nodded and lead me back to the library. We had to pass by the guys, it hurt me to do this.

"Namjoon is there another way to the library?" I bit my cheek, he shook my head.

"Let's just talk to them for a bit, you don't have to look at Jungkook. The guys will lift up your mood, you and I both know that." He was right, I agreed with him while we went to talk to the guys.

Jungkook slightly let his phone down, a name of a girl was on his screen as he was texting her. A smile suddenly landed on his face, my breathing grew heavy. I felt weak again.

"I'll just meet you at the library." My voice cracked, I tried to hide my tears but I failed as I rushed to the library. I can't even make him smile like that anymore. Did I mean nothing to him?

I couldn't even make my way to the library. I stopped by a wall and slid down while sobbing to myself. I purposely hit the back of my head.
The physical pain was better then the pain I was going through now.

I looked to see a window beside me, the guys can see me. I froze while Jimin, Jin, Taehyung and Yoongi saw me in tears. Worry grew on their face while I pushed myself up.

I haven't sobbed this hard in quite some time, but I was loosing Jungkook again. It hurt me to know that. The girl must treat him better then I do. I stared down at my ring, I heard quick footsteps as my name was being called.

I wiped my tears but the pain didn't stop. I couldn't help but continue crying. I saw all the guys including Jungkook.

"I-I'm fine. I'm sorry." I whimpered. "You know, girls being emotional and all." I chuckled lightly, I could barely see Jungkook as he was in the back.

I just wanted to leave before anybody could ask me why I was upset, the reason was basically just around the corner.