Joshifer Fanfiction - A Different Love

Chapter 3

What am I going to do?

Nothing.

I tell myself.

I have to act like it was nothing, because Josh and me could never happen.

Never.

I sigh. He hasn't come out of his trailer all day, we have to stay on set tonight and all of tomorrow before we can come home.

I knock on his door a few times, I think he won't open it at first but eventually he does.

He looks at me, smiling.

"Hey Jen." He says happily.

Maybe he doesn't have feelings for me.

"Hey Josh." I say, just as happily.

"Want to come in?" He ushers me into his trailer.

I nod and walk in, his trailer is the same size as everyone else's. It's big, a bathroom, bedroom, couch, small kitchen and TV can fit in it.

I take a seat on the couch and he joins me after closing the door.

"What's up?" He asks, still smiling. Something is different.

"I just thought I'd check up on you, I mean you haven't been out the whole day." I reply.

His face falls and his smile dissapears, his eyes dart to the floor.

"Oh, about that...Jen can I tell you something?" He asks.

Oh no. He's going to say he has feelings for me. I can't let him...

"Sure." I say automatically.

What am I doing?

"Well, I need your advice on something," He starts,

here we go...

"I want to propose to Claudia." He splutters.

I gasp.

I was wrong all this time, he wasn't even thinking about me, it was always about Claudia.

I feel a tinge of hurt.

I shouldn't though.

"Wow Josh." Is all I can say.

He looks at me hopefully.

What can I tell him?

"That's great."

He smiles.

"Do you think it's a good idea...I mean, I thought, you know-"

"It's a good idea, Josh, you should do it."

I start to feel uncomfortable, like I shouldn't be here.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Are you okay Jen?" He asks, looking worried.

Damn I must be pale.

"Yeah, yeah, don't worry about me. I think I just ate too much."

"That's unheard of." He laughs.

"Yeah do you have any pizza?"

We share a laugh.

"Well, Jen. Thanks for this, it really boost my confidence."

"Anytime." I lie. I really don't want to get in a conversation like this again.

"Okay, well..."

"Oh I guess that's my call to get out." I get up.

"No, no, you can stay if you like."