More Than This: A One Direction Love Story (Editing..Grammar and Stuff)

Chapter 21: When Everything Comes Crashing Down Part 2

Hey guys! So next week guess what! I'm going to Cancun!!! Haha whoop whoop vacation! So I wont be able to upload as much! :( But! I'll try to work whenever I can

And sorry for spelling errors!

Love,

Krissy Horan Xx

(Krissy's P.O.V.)

I layed on the floor, I didn't even bother moving to my bed. I felt broken, my heart shattered into a million pieces. Like my whole world was over, I layed there alone crying. I felt alone, no one could understand me because they didn't know the truth. I couldn't tell them the truth because I just couldn't. Who knows if they'd even believe me? They could just think I'm lying, being a big drama queen and trying to blame someone else. I layed on the floor crying my eyes out. My throat was so dry, I was crying so much I was literly running out of liquid in my body. I wanted to get water so bad but I didn't even want to risk going out there and seeing anyone. Soon the others would arrive home, see Niall or me and find out. I am so depressed, I just feel like jumping out the window, going to bed and never having to wake up again so I wouldn't have to deal with all this...Look at me feeling sorry for myself, there are kids in africa with no family and no food, here I am in my luxury hotel on vacation, and I'm the one feeling sorry for myself, I didn't deserve any of this! I suddenly became mad and depressed. I found the strength to climb into bed I layed there starring at the roof. Hours passed by, I layed there crying. I felt so bad. Soon I heard the front door, shut, there back. I didn't want to handle this. But I had too. I heard them say somethings, like what happened? Or Niall, or How'd that happen....Soon Cat came into my room. I looked at her still crying, she gave me a sorry expression. "Krissy, what happened"She asked me. I felt so vulnerable, I began to poor my heart out to her. "And I just don't know, I feel so bad, heartbroken, horrid, sorry, I regret everything. I wish this never happened and that I was back to being happy with Niall, not depressed!"I sobbed, I collapsed crying into my already wet sheets. "Krissy, But Why aren't you going??"Cat asked "I can't tell you why I can't!"I said cryinng harder. Cat shook her head. "It's never good To hold it all in, not tell anyone. You have to tell someone...It might not be me, but you have to tell someone or you'll break down"Cat said comfoting me, I looked up at her, "Cat! Can't you see? Look at me! I'm a mess! I'm already broken down! I'm torn"I said crying, she looked at me shocked, I didn't even smile at my One Direction reference, she stayed silent, "If you need to talk, I'm here..."She said getting up, "Wait!"I said before she could leave. "Whats going to happen?"I asked finally thinking. "I-....I don't know Krissy, I don't know" Cat said shaking her head. Then she quietly left the room. What was going to happen, I opened my laptop, I opened the internet. The Entertainment News was my homepage. And of course Niall was all over the site. I quickly closed my laptop, I couldn't handle seeing his face. I grabbed my ipod. I plugged in my earphones and blasted music. Any deppressing love song, I listened to it. I think I listened to I Never Told You By Colbie Calliat a thousand times just this night. I layed in bed crying. I couldn't believe it was over. It couldn't be over...i then felt something vibrating from under me, it was my phone...1 New Text,

Is someone depressed? It's going to get better, well better for me. Xx

I cringed. I tossed my phone on the counter and plugged it into the charger, the tv was on, soon my ipod died. I put that in the charger, I layed on the bed under the covers crying. It was over, all over....

I woke up the next morning, well I didn't even remember waking up. I probably won't remember putting on my contacts either. I was so depressed. For some reason I decided to get out of bed. I walked into the kitchen, Liam and Seline were there, they were crying... I looked around everyone I saw was crying! "Wh-What Happened?!"I asked scared. "You! You happened!"Louis shouted angry, I backed up. I looked around, Harry was crying hard "Whats wrong?? Please tell me!"I shouted. Harry looked me straight in the eyes, his eyes filled. With tears, he looked angry too. "Ni-Niall! He commited suicied!!"Harry shouted I felt my eyes widen, tears began to fly down my cheek. "N-No! No! Please no! Tell me your lying!"I shouted crying. "And it's because of you"Harry said coldly, he pointed at me, looking disgusted. I collapsed on the floor, "No!"I shouted, I kept sobbing, Niall couldn't have killed himself! No! No! No! Then I woke up... I was crying hard, I could tell I was probably screaming, but I was all alone. Niall wasn't there. I felt lifeless...Soon Harry ran in the room. "WHAT!? WHAT HAPPENED?! WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING BLOODY MURDER?!"He asked screaming. I cried hiding my face in the pillow. I soon felt the bed move down. And then someone rubbing my back. "Shh, Krissy whats wrong? Bad dream? Tell me about it."Harry said softly, I looked up, "Eh-Everyone was crying and then I-I asked wha-what was wrong and you said Ni-Niall commi-commited Suicide! And you told me, it it was all my fault!"I said crying. I burried my face in the pillow. "Krissy! Niall is alive and well, he'd never do that! And it'd never be your fault!"Harry said, I cried and I cried. "Shhh, Krissy why don't you go eat, I'll makke you some oatmeal?"Harry asked. "If I see him, I'll just burst into tears, I can't handle seeing him and not being able to-....To..."I began to say but started crying again. I heard Harry sigh, "He won't even come out of Liam's room, he slept on the couch in there."Harry said. "Now, Come on"Harry said I shook my head, then I climbed under all the covers and hid myself. I stayed there crying. Then I felt Harry get off the bed, then I heard the door open and close. He was gone. I stayed there crying my eyes out, I couldnt handle anything. I listened to my ipod, I listened to I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat on repeat. This was horrible, the lyrics almost perfectly matched my feelings. I did, I missed being able to look into his beautiful blue eyes, the way we sleep, the way he kisses my nose, my lips. The way He smiles...I now did see his blue eyes whenever I closed mine. I missed everything about him! We went through so much, and now because of whoever is blackmailing me were not us annymore! No, it's my fault! For whatever I did! I became really angry with myself. I started thinking, having thoughts, bad thoughts....