Thoughts. (BTS Sope)

042.

I laid on my bed.
Alone.
Thinking.
Over thinking to be exact.
I had forgotten how it was to be alone. I didn't want to be alone anymore.
Hoseok had left only a few hours ago and I already missed him. I wanted him to come back to me. I needed him.
Fuck.
Why is this happening to me? I've never needed anyone.
Why do I feel like dying when he isn't here? When he's gone everything crumbles down on me.
I never felt this for anyone.
Is this true love?
Or am I just crazy?
Crazy for him.
For his touch.
His warmth.
His everything.
I'm so tired but I can't seem to sleep. My eyes won't shut and my brain won't shut up. All I can think of was him.
Should I call him?
Maybe text him?
Would that be too clingy?
Would I scare him away?
Fuck.
I really did want to.
I wanted to know if he got home safe.
If he missed me as much I missed him.
I wanted to know all of this.
I curled up into a ball and shut my eyes tight. I began to count sheep.
One.
Two.
Three.
Baby boy.