Thoughts. (BTS Sope)

058.

That night I spent the night thinking. Thinking hard.
I decided, after a long process, I call Hoseok.

Hello?

Hey.

Are you okay baby?

I don't know.

There was a long silence.

I'll be at your house in 5 baby boy.

I felt a hot tear run down my face.

Did you hear me? Hello?

I covered my mouth so he couldn't hear that I was crying.

Baby? You're worrying me. Please say something.

Nothing came out of my mouth. I didn't really want him here but I couldn't say no. I couldn't say anything.
I threw my phone, covered myself, and cried.
I wanted Hoseok. I wanted him more than anything. I wanted to unsee what I saw. I wanted to deny what happened right in front of me.
Maybe I'm just jumping to conclusions and there was nothing there. My heart hurt just like the rest of my body.
I saw him with someone else. They drove off together and he never told me anything.
Is our relationship falling apart? Does he not trust me enough to tell me such things? Why does he have to keep this, whatever it is, a secret?
I drowned in my tears, thoughts, and emotions.

     "Yoongi! I know you're in here! Please open the door."

I ignored Hoseoks voice and fell asleep.