Carnival Heart

Chapter Thirty Eight- " grace is not my best friend "

Spring, trees are blooming, flowers are growing and there's loads of rain. Besides that it's the spring carnival, we've had the winter one halloween one, now spring. The spring carnival is in the park and not at the school. Every year there is a big show of flowers and I help plant some new flowers before the carnival starts.
I walked down the pathway and dug the last hole and placed some flower seeds inside and barred them back up.
I stood up and took off my gloves.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket to see a text from Brendon.

Brendon- hey my mom is making me go to some weird family thing, so I won't make it to the carnival
Bethy- sucky, it's ok i'll hangout with Chance or Grace and Sofia, but have fun
Brendon- yeah sure i'll have fun bye
Bethy- bye

I put my phone away and walked over to the entrance where people were starting to arrive. I stood by it and waited to see Chance walked though.
Once he did I walked over and scared him.
" hey " I smiled placing my hands on his shoulders.
" oh my, don't do that " he jumped.
" where's Brendon? " he asked.
" family thing " I sighed.
" ah, that must suck " he said.
" yeah " I said.
We walked over to my favorite game of all time.
" you just love this game don't you " Chance said.
" yeah, maybe even more the Brendon ".
" don't tell him I said that " I smiled.
" don't worry I wont " he laughed.
" did you know the mayor is coming today " I said.
" really? That's new " he said.
" I know, I was shocked " I said.
We walked over to the bumper carts.
" come on " Chance said pulling me over to a cart.
" fine " I sighed.
There were only ten people aloud at a time, luckily we got in when my brother got in so we got to attack him.
" Hey! Stop it! " Cole yelled.
" never! " I yelled as Chance bumped into me.
" hey! I thought we were on a team " I said.
" well you thought wrong " he said.

We got off the ride, " that was awesome " I smiled.
" I know, I want to do it again " Cole said.
" well you'll have to wait in the line then " Chance said.
I spotted Judy in the distance, " i'll be right back " I said running over to her.
" hey " I smiled.
" hey? " she said.
" so did you hear the mayor is coming today " I said.
" yeah " I nodded.
" so what have you been doing? " I asked.
" stop, just stop " she said.
" what? " I asked.
" we're not friends and you know that " she said.
" I just thought-".
" No..... Bethany, you thought wrong, i'm still not ready, i'm getting there, but by you still texting me and trying to act like we're still friends and like nothing ever happened, it's harder " she said.
" I just can't be your friend right now " she said.
" Judy-".
" no! Just go and hangout with your best friend Grace " she said.
" wait, where did you get that from, Grace is not my best friend, were hardly even friends " I said.
" I don't care ok, just leave me alone " she said walking away.
I felt a tap on my shoulder, I turned around and saw Chance.
" hey? You ok? " he asked.
" I just have to go " I said walking away.
I walked halfway home when I just broke down crying.
I sat down on the sidewalk.
" Beth? " someone said.
I looked away, " are you ok " I realized it was Grace.
" yeah i'm, i'm fine " I said wiping away my tears and looking at her.
" your not fine " she said sitting down beside me.
" what happened, was it Brendon? " she asked.
" no, no, not at all, it was my fault " I said.
" I can help, you helped me and were friends " she smiled.
" I don't know " I said.
" come on, i'll help " she said.
" ok, so as you know Judy and I aren't friends, but I just keep, pushing and pushing to be her friend, but the more I push, the more I lose her " I said.
" oh " she said.
" every carnival this year has something that happens to make it, just mess up somehow " I said.
" and it's always my fault " I said.
" no it's not, you've had a great time with Brendon, I just saw you in the bumper carts, you still end up having fun even if there is one bad thing, your always happy " she said.
" yeah, but that's not the point, I... i've lost my best friend and I think for good this time " I said.
" time, you just need time, she'll come back " Grace said.
I nodded, " thanks " I smiled.
Everyone has been telling me it just needs time, and I guess it's true, but I always think I needed to hear it from another girl to actually believe it fully. Or i'm just really stubborn and want my best friend back.
I got home and sat down on the couch.
" why is this my life " I sighed.
The door opened and Cole walked in.
" you missed the mayor speaking " he said.
" yeah I know " I said.
" why did you leave so early? " he asked.
" are you ok? " he asked.
" you know what, i'm great, I feel great, and that's been a rare feeling, but I feel great " I smiled.
" why? " he asked walking over to me.
" I've just realized, I need to stop pushing, and let time work " I said.
" who made you realize that? " he asked.
" Grace actually " I said.
" really? ".
" yeah, I was as surprised as you were " I said.
" well that's great, but I do have to say the mayor today was so funny, you should have been there " he said.
" why was it so funny? " I asked.
" just so many jokes " he said.
" like what? " I asked.
He started to tell me all the jokes making me laugh, I guess Grace was right the good does it really does over shadow the bad.