The Possessive Alpha and his Stubborn Mate

Chapter 31

I hope you all enjoy this chapter! I'm really sorry if it's crappy. I've had horrible anxiety all day and I don't know I just wanted to write a little because it helps me get my mind of crap in my life but I felt like this chapter wasn't everything I wanted it to be, but whatever!

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I laid on my bed in my old bedroom, crying.

I had shown up expecting my mother to ask me so many questions, but I guess showing up crying forced her to withhold her questions. I told her that I just needed time to be alone and with that, I went upstairs and ended up here. That was about an hour ago so I had no doubt that she'd probably come up any moment to start asking me what was wrong and so forth.

Quite frankly I was okay with her asking because I felt like I needed someone to talk to.

Although my mother didn't sound ideal for that, I didn't really have anyone else. And my dad was probably working, so it left me to my mom. Who I know probably won't have any good advice for me, at least she'd be someone to talk to.

I wasn't sure if I meant what I had said to Derek. I wanted to mean it. I wanted to be able to leave and never turn back but I'm not really sure that it's possible. Can I really just leave without care, without looking back? Leave without Derek ever chasing me?

I wonder what he was thinking right now. What he was doing. Probably calling up Kelly and telling her I was finally gone so she's more than welcome to come back so that they can fuck in his office.

The thought actually made me cry harder into my pillow.

"Allison?" My mother slightly knocked on my door, peaking her head into my old room. I glance over at her. She smiles sadly at me, walking in and shutting the door behind her despite the fact that no one else was home.

She takes a seat on the bed, facing me. "What happened?" She asks, reaching forward and moving my hair out of my eyes, wiping a few tears from my cheeks.

"It doesn't matter," I whisper, sniffling.

"I'm your mother, Allison. You can tell me anything sweetheart." I look at her, searching her eyes to see if she was telling the truth. She probably was. My mother and I never really had a good relationship, so it was hard to actually force myself to tell her everything.

"I can't do this anymore. I can't be a mate to Derek, I can't be a Luna to this pack, because in the end-" I pause, trying to contain my crying. "I'm just a human mom." She nods.

"I know, I know this is a lot. It hasn't been easy for you whatsoever. You didn't expect this at all, but it'll get better and easier over time." She says reassuringly. "I don't know about that.." I bite my lip.

"What happened with Derek?" She asks. I knew she probably knew there was more to the story.

"I think he's in love with this other girl. He was with her even after meeting me. And I know I've been basically rejecting him this whole time but I can't help but feel hurt over it, feel heartbroken." She nods.

"That's horrible, but there's no way he can be in love with another girl." She whispers. I wanted to believe her, but just because it isn't heard of doesn't mean it's impossible.

"Mom, can I ask you something?" I ask, sitting up.

"Of course." She gives me a sad smile.

I wipe the tears from my cheeks and move my hair out of my eyes. I look at her, biting my lip. "Would it be horrible if I just left? Dropped everything here and went anywhere else?" I ask slowly.

She frowns, probably not expecting this to be the question I wanted to ask her. "Sweetheart- you can't just leave. You can't leave Derek, or this pack." She shakes her head.

I frown. I wasn't sure what I was expecting out of the question. I wasn't sure what I wanted her answer to be either.

"I'm gonna go." I get off the bed, slipping on my shoes. "Sweety?" I turn to look at her questionably.

"You can't leave Derek." I look down at my feet, apart of me feeling more shattered than before.

I nod before walking away.

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I was walking aimlessly through the territory, half tempted to start walking away, far away from this territory. But where the hell would I go? I had nobody, no money, no place specifically to actually go. I'd basically just be homeless.

It felt like there was no way out of this life. I wasn't sure why fate had chosen this for me.

I hadn't even admitted this to myself, but after finding out that I had a mate, I did feel hope for once in my life. I felt like maybe I might have meaning. Because after I graduated I planned on just leaving, but finding out I was a mate to someone, it just gave me hope that I'd be happy eventually, that I'd finally feel like I fit in.

God knows that wasn't the case.

In fact, it was so far from it. Here I was feeling utterly alone. A mate that although won't actually say it, doesn't really care for me as much as I thought he did. Parents that would never put my best interest first, and no one to turn to through it all. Can anyone blame me for wanting to run?

"Allison! Thank God!" I narrow my eyes, turning around.

I was a little taken back to see Felix. Where the hell had he came from? And why did he look out of breath? Werewolves hardly got out of breath!

"What?" I narrow my eyes confusingly at him.

"Derek has half the pack looking for you. After your mother called him worried that you might leave the territory he freaked the fuck out. Swearing that he'd kill me if I came back without you. I was starting to believe I might actually have to just find another pack." He shakes his head.

"But I found you! Thank the moon goddess!" He says happily. "I'm not going back." I point out making him frown.

"Allison-" He starts but I cut him off. "You've been there the whole time, you know what he did Felix and you know I can't go back to him because he'd probably do it again." He nods, looking sad.

"I wanted to tell him that he should tell you that he didn't actually kick Kelly out of the pack. I knew you'd figure it out eventually- but Allison you can't just leave." My eyes widen at him, completely taken off guard.

"Kelly never left?" I ask in a low whisper. "You didn't know? Then why did you leave?" I sigh, running my hand through my hair.

"Dammit!" I yelled, leaning against a tree trunk.

"Luna? Are you okay?" Felix asks.

"No, I am not okay! Derek is a fucking liar and a coward and he just expects me to come back to him? Fuck that!" I shake my head.

I was no longer super sad hurt, in fact, I was pissed.

I had no idea what to do at this point.

"You can at least say it to my face, Allison." I close my eyes, taking in a deep breath before looking at a guilty Felix, Derek behind him.

"You mind linked him?" I ask, feeling betrayed. "I'm sorry Luna." He says, looking down.

I shake my head, falling to the ground. 

My life really sucks.