Phoenix

Different Shades Of Shivaay

After a wonderful day out,, they reached back to their apartment. Annika is really happy for an unknown reason,, but the man behind her happiness is Shivaay. She thought to herself  though it was an unexpected unfortunate life which I never ever even dreamt of,,this life is beautiful,, may be I like, no love this shivaay more than SSO. My cutie naughty Shivaay,, my shivaay... Exclusively mine... Thinking this a sweet smile creeped on her lips and she said " Shivaay, fresh up and come down,,, I will prepare dinner for us"
He nodded positively with a smile and went to his room.
Annika started preparing his favorite dishes with the help of internet chaachii... She was busy with her jobs to impress shivaay and to love him more and more..

Meanwhile, Shivaay was distressed for no reason, he himself doesn't know what's happening,,, he went near their wardrobe and messed all the dress which was nearly arranged by Annika. He went inside the bathroom and stood under the shower nearly 1 hour. It was ice cold water falling on his head and the room temperature in Ireland was 10 degree Celsius. But he stood like a log without any reaction.

Annika set the delicious food beautifully on their small dining table and decorated with candles.
It's almost 3 hours,, where is shivaay?? Has he slept?? Omg... My naughty cutie... She thought and headed towards their room calling 'shivaaaaaay...... Shivaay....'
shivaay came out of the bathroom shivering wearing his track suit,,cold water droplets were shedding from each strand of his hair, his eyes were red and swollen, he might have cried... "Shivaay what happened to you..." Annika asked holding his shoulders and her hands froze due to coldness of his body...she immediately covered his bare body with a towel and started rubbing his head with another dry towel....

Shivaay neither utter a word nor he showed any reaction. Annika switched on the centralised heater and within 15 minutes shivaay regained normal body temperature. She make him wear his shirt.
Annika looked deep into his eyes and asked with a low light tone cupping his face in her hands.      "what happened to you shivaay,?? Is everything all right??"
Shivaay turned his face as he doesn't want to answer her. She understood the meaning of his doing and to deviate his mind, she tried to change the topic but she knew that something was wrong. Trying to hide her confusions, she tried to smile at him and started talking normally as if nothing happened.
Annika : shivaay, come let's have dinner,,, I had already prepared your favorite dishes.
Shivaay (without looking at her) :I am not hungry Annika. Let me sleep please. I think I need to be alone for some time.
Annika: Ohhh hello,, I married you not to leave u alone okay... And don't be so mean,,,do you know how hard I worked to make your favorite food?? Come let's have our dinner
She held his arms and pulled him slightly...
He pushed her hard.... And for her fortune,,, she fell on to their bed... Her eyes were filled with tears automatically.
"I said leave me alooooooooneeeeeee" shivaay roared.
A fear passed through her spine, and she was about to get up from the bed, he again pushed her back to the bed and he leaned towards her and closed her mouth by his hands and said.



   "don't dare to come near me,,,, I need my private space,, I need to be alone,,, don't show me your attitude and now get out"  he was literally screaming,, but tears filled his eyes too.. Annika was witnessing yet another phase of her husband. He dragged Annika from bed and pushed her out of the room and he closed the door.

She was broken, but she wasn't angry at him because she knew it wasn't him but his disease did all these.

She sat on the dining table which was beautifully decorated but the beauty vanished as her tears started flowing like a river... She leaned on the same dining table and slept due to tiredness, tears, hunger and pain (of heart). Shivaay didn't open the door yet.

After sometime,, Annika woke up due to neck pain and looked at the clock,, it is 1am.. omg it's 1am, I didn't knew when I slept and that too here... she thought and walked towards their room, she slightly pushed the door but she understood that it was locked from inside. She moved to the adjacent room parallel to their room, where she can see what's going on in the other room as it was half glassed walls. For her sudden surprise,, shivaay wasn't sleeping. She was awake and walked here and there inside the room. She felt like going near him but scared of his antics at the same time. She could do nothing, but wept silently. She wanted the sunrise as early as possible.

Morning 7 am
On phone
Annika: hello, Dr. Pai, please do listen to me,,, you have to come and meet him as early as possible because I have seen many other phases of shivaay in the last 12 hours. I am scared of his condition. I tried to pacify him with all the love and care but he isn't really responding. Please do something.....
Dr. Pai : Mrs. Obroi,, don't worry,, please don't disturb him. I will be there today.

Shivaay woke up and called loudly : Annnnniiiikkkkaaaaaaa......
Annika was hell scared but gaining courage she went inside his room and found him sitting on the bed holding his head. Realising her presence, he looked up to see a scared faced Annika. She jumbed from his bed and made Annika sit on the bed and said with a sad cute pout: Annie.... My head is very paining..... He held Annika's hand and moved it towards his head. Hearing 'Annie' from his mouth made her sigh in relief.
He continued: Annie,, I don't know what had happened,, but I couldn't sleep at all,, I know I shouted at you yesterday,, but I am sorry Annie,, I don't know why and what had happened,,, I couldn't control myself... Please don't hate me Annie,,, please.... I can't live without you..... Please donnn't haaattteee m........ He fell down on her lap with eyes full of tears and slipped into sleep.....she was numb but her hands caressed his hair automatically...... (cover picture)

Precap : Dr. Pai: It's all his symptoms Mrs. Obroi. You have to be very strong emotionally, mentally and physically.