Carlisle drives us back to town before parking in the same car park as earlier. "When are you going to tell her?"
I take a deep breath. "Maybe tomorrow... or tonight. Is she home?"
"She's hunting with Jasper, but she'll be home late. Give her a call and I'm sure she'll come whenever you ask." He smiles.
I nod and smile back. "Thank you Carlisle - I really needed that. Someone to listen to me rather than question me and scrutinise my behaviour."
"You're welcome, B. You're as much of a daughter to me than Alice, Rose and Bella. You're family." He kisses my head and climbs out.
I smile as I climb over to the drivers seat. "You sure you don't want a ride?" I call out of the window.
He smirks as he walks towards the trees. "God gave me legs for a reason." He winks before he disappears.
I giggle small and begin to drive home, not realising how late it is until I see the clock on the dash - crap I'm gonna be grilled when I get home. I sigh and brace myself as I pull into the driveway, already seeing the curtain move as someone peaks out. Here we go...
"Where have you been?" Mom rushes over as soon as I open the door.
I kick my shoes off and hang my jacket up. "Hey mom how was work? Oh really? Cool." I mutter.
"Bailey, I'm serious. Where were you?" She demands. "Have you been drinking or-"
"Oh mom, shut up!" I snap. "You want to do a breath test and drug test every time I leave the house!? Shall I make sure my bladders full every time I enter the house?" I snap, glaring. "I was with Carlisle, and no you can't know where because that's my business. I was actually in a good mood up until 2 minutes ago! Will you let me breathe!?"
She's silent, as is everyone eaves dropping in the living room. "I just care..."
"Don't you think I know that? You sound like a broken record - what happened to trusting me? You swore it wouldn't be like this, this is why I didn't want to come home. How can I stay healthy when you're all suffocating me!? Why are you all expecting me to fail!?" I yell before I storm upstairs.
Okay, maybe I was just a wee bit intense but I think I got my point across. One of the main points my therapist, Shauna, keeps telling me to do is put my foot down - she says to remind them that I know what I've done but I am an adult, I am incharge of my decisions and my health and thanks you for the concern but please take a step down. Maybe it would have sounded better that way.. but oh well. I close the bedroom door and lock it - yeah dad wasn't happy with that but I need my privacy.
I put some music on low and sit on my bed with a sigh, grabbing my phone. I stare at Alice's name for a moment, debating between texting or calling. Which would be better? A text would be easier to say what I need but it's a little impersonal. A voicemail would be personal, but I'd ramble and stutter... oh fuck it.
I let it dial and take a breath as I hear the beep. "Hey Al it's me... I came to realise something today and I think you would wanna know what. I choose you - over everything. I choose you. I hope it isn't too late... I love you, Mary Alice Brandon. With all my heart. Please call me." I whisper as I hang up, all confidence fizzling away. Did I say the right thing...?
I sigh and turn my phone off, tucking it under my pillow before going to my bathroom. I lock the door and turn the shower on, humming as I feel my tense muscles relax under the hot water, steam filling the room. I take my time washing my hair, shaving, washing my makeup off; anything to waste some time and not be sat alone for so long. Eventually there isn't much for me to do but stand there so I climb out and wrap the towel around myself, wiping the condensation from the mirror. I hear a knock on the other door that leads to Ronnies room.
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My Heart Beats For You // Alice Cullen
Fanfiction*COMPLETED FOR NOW* Bailey Rowe, 16 years old; A little bit of an outcast, distrusted by her family. She finds herself partnered with who her biology teacher thinks can support her most after she lost yet another tutor. Alice Cullen, 103 years old...