Look at the sky Tell me what do you see Just close your eyes And describe it to me The heavens are sparkling With starlight tonight That's what I see Through your eyes
I see the heavens Each time that you smile I hear your heartbeat Just go on for miles And suddenly I know My life is worth while That's what I see Through your eyes
Here in the night I see the sun Here in the dark Our two hearts are one It's out of our hands We can't stop what we have begun And love just took me by surprise Looking through your eyes I look at myself And instead I see us Whoever I am now It feels like enough And I see a girl Who is learning to trust That's who I see through your eyes
Amy POV
I enjoyed the whole day touring Seoul, the girls went crazy trying on different hanbok as we go around Gyeongbokgung Palace. They all had the fun playing around like a Korean nobel woman.
I miss him already. We've been spending a lot of time together these past few days, getting to know each other. I really love spending time with him.
When I am with Hyunsik, I feel like my old self. Simple, happy and contented. He makes me so happy that I am scared. I'm scared that I don't deserve it. I don't deserve him.
I am not dense. I know and I can tell from the way he looks at me. I know, because I feel the same. I don't want to acknowledge it, because I am not sure if I can be what he need, or if I deserve to be with him.
I keep telling myself I should stop this, but my heart is telling me to try. Am I allowed to be happy? I look at my phone and read his message.
➡️ I'll pick you up by 8:00pm.
He asked me to go to Achasan Mountain with him tonight, he said its breathtaking at night. I type a message to him.
⬅️ Can I just meet you there? ➡️ But I want to pick you up 🙁 ⬅️ I'll let you take me home later 😉 ➡️ Really I can take you home? 😱 ⬅️ Yah, that's not what I meant 🤨 ➡️ Haha I know, see you 😘
I wanted to be alone for a while, that's why I asked to meet him there. I just want sometime to think.
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I am standing at the entrance of the park waiting for him. As soon as he saw me, he wave at me with his signature eye smile plastered on his face.
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I feel my heart beat fast as he walks towards me. The way he looks at me and the way he smiles at me melts my heart. I don't need more time, I know in my heart that I'm falling for him. Hell can welcome me if that would mean I get to be with him.
He took my hand as soon as he reached me.
"Something wrong?" he asked worriedly. I shake my head and try to smile at him and I gesture at him to lead the way to the peak.
He look at me as if trying to see if I am really okay. How can I tell him, I just acknowledge to my self that I am falling for him?
We walk hand in hand to climb the mountain and reach the peak.
It's breathtaking! The view is so serene its sureal.
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"It's beautiful!" I couldn't help exclaimed at the view in front of me. I turned to him and smiled at him, thanking him for taking me to this place.
I was glad there's not much people around and we are the only one at the area where he took me. He told me they use to come here a lot. Him and the BTOB guys, they would drink beer on the bench and talk about their dreams.
I can see from his smile that he loves them and that he's proud of them. I smiled to myself knowing what they have been through. It must have been hard for BTOB and him during those years they are struggling. Their switch to ballad and I guess Hyunsik's sad songs help them.
We look at the horizon, his arms on my shoulder my head on his. I wish we could stay like this forever.
"Why do you always look sad?" I look up to him when he ask me that. I move away from him. I sighed. I guess we would come to this.
"Is it because of your Mom?"
I gulp, I don't know what to say or how to start telling him.
"Yes." I whispered, I am not even sure if my voice came out. I moved my gaze from him to the view in front of me.
I felt his movement beside me. I gasped when I felt him backhugging me. I met his hands in front of, like it would give me the strenght I need for what I am about to say to him.
I was about to speak, when I heard him softly singing.
She is already up so high that I can't reach her She is shining with the countless twinkling stars She is so beautiful that I can't dare to want her Like her Because I love a girl like her For her Because I live for her
Just wait, I will fly high just like you Higher than the countless twinkling stars above you Just wait, I will always be by your side I'll be your star that shines brighter than anyone else
Baby I'll be your star All you need to do is shine, just wait, I'll be there soon Baby I'll be your star So I won't lose my courage Let me see at least your back
"You don't have to tell me anything, just know that when you feel like your world is getting dark, I will be your star to shine bright and light you way."
I cried. I couldn't help it anymore, I don't deserve him. He squeezed my hand. I inhaled deeply, hoping the air would give me the courage.
"I killed my Mom."
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Author's Note
Cliff hanger again. I know, sorry. Heads up, Amy's behind story coming.
