Book I: I'll Be Your Melody

Chapter 23

Flashback

Changsub POV
I know I shouldn't do this, but I'm letting go of my pride, I don't want to see my brother looking miserable. It goes beyond my belief, I value my pride so much, but here I am in front of Seoyeon, begging her not to go, begging her not to leave Hyunsik.

"Oppa, I'm really sorry, I have to go, Hyunsik and I....we're not working anymore, and this is my dream." she cried as she said this to me. I was glad we are on the secluded part of the cafe, I don't want people to see her like this, for her sake at least.

"You were together for years Seoyeon, how can you leave him like this." I couldn't help but emphasized.

"Oppa, believe me, I don't want him to be like this. I love him so much it hurts me, but I have to love myself too. I need to do this for me."

I run my hand through my hair and grabbed it in frustration. I understand her, but I don't want Hyunsik to be like this, like he doesn't want to live anymore. Music has been his life, both of us actually, but he love it more than I do. Now he barely even touch any of his instruments, he drinks from the time he wakes up until he fall asleep. He doesn't talk, he barley eats, our Mom is worried that he hasn't been home to Ilsan. I haven't told them about his situation with Seoyeon, they would be devastated if they would see him now.

"Seoyeon-ah, can you at least talk to him?"

She shakes her head, "Oppa, I wanted to stay for him, for us, but I know in my heart, I am no longer what he needs. He was my fairy tale that came true,  I wanted us to last forever, I was blinded by that thought, we both are. But fairy tales are different than reality, we have our own priorities, we grew apart. I thought I was his princess and he was my knight in shinning armor, but we became the worst enemy of each other. I love him so much it pains me to know he's like this."

I put my hands on her and slightly squeezed it, I know I am asking too much from her, it was selfish of me to ask this of her. I only think of my brother, I only see Hyunsik's pain, I didn't thought she might be hurting too.

"Maybe one day, when we both found ourselves again, maybe then we can go back to how we were before."

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I went to Hyunsik's house after my conversation with Seoyeon. I can't do anything about the two of them, I just need Hyunsik to be strong and face his own demons.

I was at the door when my phone rings, I cursed when I realized who's calling.

"Chorongie.. please don't be mad." I pleaded as soon as I answer my phone. We were supposed to meet up today, she has her day off and we can finally watch the movie she likes. I want to punch Hyunsik's face right now, I might have to lose my own girlfriend if I don't see her soon.

"Yah! Lee Changsub!! I waited for you, I am all dressed up, and you didn't even call me." she screamed at me on the other line.

"I'm sorry Chorongie, I'm at Hyunsik's"  she knows about what's going on with my brother and she's worried too.

I heard her sigh on the other line. "How is he?" I sighed because I was reminded of how miserable he is. "Still the same. I'm really worried for him Chorongie." If there is one person who could understand how worried I am, it would be Chorong, she was my bestfriend before we became a couple, well she still is, since I always confide in her about everything.