Only You

Riley

8 pm.

Me and Audrey arrive at the party I'm wearing a black dress, her a red one.
I'm practically shaking the whole time walking in. We get to the suite and it's huge!
Maybe I won't find him, good.
So many people and things in one big room.
We head to get drinks.

"Hey you made it"
Oh no.

I turn around and see Cash, he looks... wow.
"Cash.." I say, absolutely breathless.
"Hey Riley" he smirks, typical of him.
Audrey looks at me and shrugs walking away I scoff. she mouths "sorry" I roll my eyes.
Cash slides to my side.
"Can we talk?" He asks me.
My heart beats fast, "we are" I spit out, turning to look at him, I probably sounded sarcastic.
"Riley... I'm serious" he says
"Fine" I say

He leads me to a room, must be his cause his suitcase is in here and he closes the door and turns the light on. And we stand there for a moment looking at each other.
"So?" I finally blurt out, impatient.
"Riley.. there's so much I have to say" he walks to me. I step back a little
"Then say it" I sigh looking into those damn blue eyes....
"I missed you" he says silently, he looks down
I feel myself tear up. I wanna say i missed you too, i love you! But I say nothing.

He comes up to me and takes me into his arms, like he can detect what I was thinking. Once I feel his warmth I start crying immediately and hold him tight.
"Cash" I sob "I missed you too" I force out.
He holds me tighter "I know" he says in calming voice trying to restrain me.
"But I'm back, I'm staying home Ri" He whispers in my ear and kisses my cheek.
I push back a little and look at him, he wipes my tears and just give me that look that immediately melts my heart, the look of
'I need you, I love you... I can't live without you'
That look that always gets to me.

"Promise?" I say
"I'm staying. I'm not gonna leave you again" he smiles. I look at him. Something tells me to run and let him go and get Audrey and get the fuck out and avoid him at all costs.
Another part of me wants to let him in, it's been a year and I love him, I missed him. Tells me trust myself and trust him. To give him a chance or time. To love and be open again. To forgive.

I shake my head "I don't know" I say
"Think about it then, please.." he holds my hand, his thumb stroking my finger. I sigh.
"You just got home though" I say "why" I add,
"Well that's why I wanna talk" he says
I sit on the bed and he sits across from me.
"Look Riley, we left things off not so great and all I could think of the whole time in LA was our last conversation, how it ended and.. I'm sorry" he says. I nod, that's it? Not even 'oh by the way sorry I didn't try to contact you or sorry I walked out the door.. (which was kinda my fault for letting him go but still)' that's it??

"Okay" I say
"Look.. it's hard to explain okay? It's been a long time.." he sighs
"It's been a year Cash. A fucking year! What the hell do you even expect here?" I say trying not to get too heated but enough to raise my voice to a certain level.

"Riley! I needed something different! To follow my dream! I begged you to go!" He yells
"Different?" I feel myself tearing up again.
"I.. was broken when you left! I couldn't go!
I have too much here that i can't just pick up and leave! And you do too, and you left! I'm sorry I'm not like Sean and the others praising you back.. but you have no clue how I felt this past year!" I yell back
"That's not what I meant" he rubs his eye,
"Okay then what?" My voice breaks
"Riley.." he sighs sadly
"No Cash.." I say
"Please listen to me" he asks
"It's just complicated and hard to explain okay? But don't think for a second that you never crossed my mind. All I wanted was you. No other girls could replace you and I tried. And the 'dream' didn't even come true... it failed. I didn't make it. So I'm home" he says
"I miss you Ri... I need you" he adds, saddest voice I've ever heard, and walks up to me.
"It's always complicated when it comes to you" I roll my eyes.

"Give me a chance" he begs.
"You said that before..." I say
"Riley..."
I get off the bed and stand up.
"I'm going home" I say, trying to fight my tears
"Riley please" he gets up off the bed.
"Bye" I say quickly walking out.

I catch my breath and I make my way through the crowd of people and search for Audrey.
"Hey!" I hear and it's her. I turn and walk to her.
"Audrey!" I say when I get to her.
"How'd it go?" She asks
"Can we go home?" I ask
"Yeah!" She says.
We grab a gift bag and leave.

We go in the elevator and I sit on the ground and out my head in my hands.
"What happened Ri?" She asks
"He wants me back" I sigh looking up at her, I stand up once were on the First floor.
"Well? Will you" she asks
I shrug, "I don't know Audrey" I sigh
"It's too soon" I add
I'm terrified.
"Understandable" she agrees

We walk through the parking lot and into our car.

She turns music on and sings along and I look out my window thinking of Cash.

I'm tired.

I close my eyes.

I wake up and we're in our apartment garage.
I hop out the car and walk with Audrey to the building.
We head to our apartment.
"Good night Riley" she yawns and goes to her room
"Night" I say and head to mine.

I take my dress if and put sweats and a tee on.
I gotta sleep this whole day off.