Only You

Riley

A few weeks have passed and I feel normal. I've been going to work, recording music, writing even been talking to Gerald. Cash and I catch up here and there but conversation is always super short. Which hurts but I ignore it best I can and just write it out. I miss him.. so much. I sigh and get off my bed, our bed. I've avoided seeing my friends around here because I still don't know how to approach them or explain what happened, mostly because I don't know where me and Cash stand anymore. The only person who knows I'm home is Audrey. I'm meeting up with her in about an hour and I'm super excited to talk to her... I need to tell someone besides Gerald how I'm feeling. I grab my car keys and drive to place I'm meeting her at. A cafe.
I walk in and see her.

"Hey little miss tour!!" she brings me into her arms. I hug her back and smile nervously.
"Oh it was Cash's tour not mine, haha but hey!! I missed you so so much, I wish you could've stayed longer" I say and sit down in my seat
A waiter comes to our table and I order a chai latte. It gets to the table pretty quick and I take a sip.

"So tell me all about it" she edges me on
"Oh, you know. It was fun" I say casually
"Just fun?" she teases me
"Well same thing every night i guess. Saw Cash perform, saw cool places, met some people, made friends.. saw...things.." I stop almost having a flashback of that night.
"And Cash? How's he. I bet he misses you, I really hope you guys can work out this long distance thing" she sips her cappuccino
"Yeah, me too..." I sip my latte
"He's okay though, he's been keeping himself very occupied" I shake my head, thats one way to put it. I don't think I'll tell her.
"Well that's good. I'm glad you guys have made it this far, you guys have got some balls Riley. You two are goals" She smiles at me, I swallow back my words with my latte and just smile and nod.
After what feels like the longest lunch ever we finally come to an end. She has to go to work and me back home. We hug good bye and into our cars and go our separate ways.

I drive home and feel so stupid. I just lied to my best friend about the most important person in my life, about something painful that happened. Lied saying things were okay when they're not. How long can I keep this up? I feel tears forming in my eyes and when the light turns red I let them fall, it's rainy day which makes me feel even more depressed that usual.
The light turns green and I wipe my eyes and keep driving. I get to the apartment building and check the mail then go up to the suite.
I take my shoes off and feel my phone buzz in my pocket.

Rook: hey, i have news

Me: what's up?

Rook: were getting a two week tour break.

Me: okay

Rook: are you okay wit Cash coming home?

Me: yeah

Rook: okay, you sure? cuz he can just stay at my place if you want

Me: trust me, it's okay lol

Rook: okay.

Me: be careful and behave 😈😂😂

Rook: whatevaaaaaa✖️✖️😂😈

I put my phone down and go to the kitchen and make myself some food, orange chicken and rice. I sit on the couch and watch a movie on netflix. After I eat I watch some more random movies and a few hours passed. Audrey calls me at 6 and asks if I wanna get drinks later and I agree. It is now 6:30 and she's coming over at 8 to get me. I go into my room and get dressed into something good and touch my hair and makeup. Not too long before Audrey knocks on the door. I let her in and she looks around. I keep forgetting shes never really seen this place. I mean she has but it was dark and had led lights on and it was crowded with party people.