... And Other Ships

TaeGi: Hold My Hand

"Yoongi-hyung?"

I turned around in my studio chair as I heard that deep voice. Ever since I met him, his voice has entranced me, taken over my senses. It was deeper then my own but was a lot more warmer, more cheery, more innocent. Kim Taehyung was innocent, unlike me and my impure soul.

Taehyung stood in the doorway of the Genius Lab with a nervous glint in his eye. I motioned for him to come in and he shut the door behind him before he came to stand in front of me. His entire body was tense and he refused to look me in the eye, and I just knew something was wrong with him. He always got like this when he was upset or nervous or hiding something.

We sat in silence for a while, but it was breaking my heart to see Taehyung so nervous in front of me. I knew how cold and heartless I acted, but he was probably one of the few people who knew the soft person I truly was. Jimin, Taehyung and Hoseok brought out my soft side. I just couldn't be cold around them.

I sighed and leaned back in my chair. "Tae, look at me," I said quietly and he looked down at me, eyes shining with fear. "What's wrong? You're acting off." Taehyung nervously licked his lips and shifted around on his feet, and I could smell the smoke coming from his ears as he thought. After another minute of silence, he finally took a deep breath.

"Yoongi-hyung, just hear me out when I say this. I... Hyung, I really like you. More than I should. Because I'm straight. Well, I thought I was." He started to laugh nervously and twisted his hands together. "But, yeah. I've had a crush on you for a really long time and... I know you don't feel the same way because you like Jimin, but... I wanted to tell you that."

Of course I knew of Taehyung's crush on me. I understood it the first time we ever held hands. It was back in trainee days and he was so tired during practice that he started to cry in the middle of the routine. I wasn't the most social or friendly person back then, but it still hurt me to see him cry; he was only a kid. So once we had a break, I sat in the corner with him and he held my hand tight for some sort of reassurance. And we still hold hands sometimes.

And yes, I did have a huge crush on Jimin, but he was with Jungkook now. But there had always been something there that drew me to Taehyung. Maybe is was his clinginess; when I roomed with Hoseok, he would lay in Hoseok's bed until he came back from whatever he was doing. Or he would lay with me after getting makeup done for a short nap. Then the hugs; he would hug me no matter where we were and would always let me get on his back and carry me around venues.

Then there was his strangeness. He always got way too hyper about things, he liked to try to rap my parts in songs - especially the Cyphers - and would yell a lot. But he was just so cute I couldn't help but smile at his antics.

And, somewhere along the way, I caught feelings for him.

I leaned back a little more in my chair and stared up at him with a frown, eyebrows knitted together. "I got over Jimin a while ago, Tae. But I don't think I ever truly had feelings for him, anyways. And of course I know you like me. You know nothing gets past me. I'm Min Suga." Taehyung smiled a small boxy smile, which slowly faded as I leaned forward a little.

"Listen, Kim Taehyung. There's something about you that has always drawn me to you, but I don't really know what it is. I... Fuck, I'm not good with words. I like you, too. A lot." He looked at me with pure shock and disbelief on his face, so I held out my hand for him.

"Hold my hand."

His big hand was warm and gentle in mine and it just felt so right. I pulled him down to my height and kissed him, making my heart jump in my chest at the feeling of his beautiful lips on mine. When we pulled away, I rested my forehead on his and looked down to our clasped hands, which sat in my lap.

"Hyung... Please don't break my heart," Taehyung whimpered after a while. My heart dropped at his words and I quickly pecked him before pulling away to hold up our hands. "You see this?" I said and he nodded. "This means that you're mine now. And I will not let you go anytime soon. Daegu boys forever, yeah?" I offered him a smile and received his enormous boxy one in return.

"Yeah, hyung. Daegu boys forever."