" How many of you signed up for the A.P. exam?"
DATE : 12 : 14 : 18 : 3 : 56 PM
I was looking forward to my fixed car since it was in the shop for the past two days. It made me relieved that it worked. It untied the knot in my stomach to know it would be fixed.
I was happy until I went to turn it on this morning.
Then it all came back.
I'm actually upset about it, I think I figured out a system, but I just want a car that works.
I don't want another thing that feeds this anxiety.
I took my midterms today, more importantly my A.P. midterms.
All it did was reassure me why I shouldn't take the exam.
I don't have enough time to do it.
But, the brightside.
The brightside:
I annotated the passage well; I used what she taught me.
I finished my Calculus midterm and was generally happy with it.
I'm grateful that my teacher made it a take-home midterm.
I made macaroni 'n cheese for the first time.
I don't have a 50 in my Lit class.
I made a 95 on my Hamlet Critical Commentary.
I've been preparing food at work.
I was able to ride the bus with a good friend of mine.
I was able to see how she made it her own.
I was able to see this kid that I connect with on a deeper level than I should.
[Interlude : Yet, I also feel self-conscious saying this because I know I barely know him and I know you know that, and I feel like you think I have no right to say that and I feel like I have no right to say that but I do so I'm sorry if I upset you by me talking about it when you know him when I don't. I also want to say that I'm intimidated by how strong of a person you are. I always feel this need to somewhat impress you or not dissapoint you when I'm around. I also me like I'm too much whenI'm around you. I also don't like bringing up topics to people that feed my anxiety. I have problems that I need to fix. - a self-conscious moment.]
I listened to CTRL in the car.
Rupaul's Drag Race All Stars 4 premieres tonight.
SZA is making music.
I wrote a thesis that pertains to the prompt unlike 3rd period.
I'm going to watch La La Land in the next couple days.
I trying to look on the brightside.
