JASMINE ✔️ (Unedited Version)

Ch : 12

Dear Baba ,

I hope you are enjoying your pleasant time in heaven I wish I meet you soon. You don't know how much I miss you at every stage of my life.
In few months I would be graduating from the school and then my real professional career will start I know your absence will create a scornful hollow on the one of the most important day of my life . Every night I pray for you and wish to at least see you in my dreams but my nights are dreamless .
Baba you know Alizey and Mama both converted to Islam . I am so confused. I don't know how to deal with this situation I am just holding up a facade so they don't get worried about me. Mama always preach us Christianity and now she converted this means the religion I followed whole my life is inappropriate ?
This is a big Question mark in my life . Baba it's drowning me. You know yesterday I cried whole night.

Days are slipping from my hand and our visit to Dada Jan is getting nearer I am scared I think he doesn't know that I am a Christian that's why he show so much love and care. The day he will came to know he will snatch Alizey and Mama from me , he will throw me out of the family but I swear Baba I love Dada Jan too , its just that I am scared . I am crying Baba, yes I admit I am a cry baby . At least  Baba, Please come in my dream I am dieing for your hugs , I want your fatherly scent around me . You said that I am your little princess then why you left your princess alone in this merciless world. Baba I want to talk to you , I want to cry my heart out to you , I want you to console me say those soothing words which made me  forget my pain. Please Baba I beg you at least come in my dream and take me in your arm.

-Your Awaiting Princess
Alina

There were so many wet spot on the letter and smuged ink. She cried her heart out, again and again reading the letter until there was no tear left to cry she traced her daughter's name , her hand writing , her lips were trembling while caressing the tear spots. She walked towards the figure peacefully sleeping on the bed . She sat beside her and stroke her curly long hair lovingly while tears were running down her cheeks .
Alina's eyelashes were also wet . She kissed her forehead then her eyes and a sob escape from her lips .
She looked away putting her hand on her mouth.
Then for a while she stayed there stroking her curly hair and staring at her peacefully sleeping figure then walk out of the room with red nose puffy eyes and a sad heart after adjusting her quilt .

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Lauren PoV

Like every night after offering Tahajud prayers I check up on my princesses.
I opened Alizey's door the room was dark and she was peacefully sleeping on her bed . Her hair was all around the pillow . She was sleeping on her right while hugging a pillow tightly towards her chest. I pulled her quilt up and after putting the bookmark in her novel I put it on the side table and switch off her lamp. 
Then I recited Ayat ul Kursi and blow it over her. She twisted a little then went back to sleep.
I came out of her room and went into Alina's room. The lights were still on and her study table was a messs with  pencil , papers , her left over cup of coffee fountain pen and some ink spots.

" My Allah this Girl ! " I murmured and start arranging them . In this instance a manuscript caught my attention.  It was peeking from between her books.  I pulled it out .
Then word by word my heart torn into millions of pieces.
I felt hotness trailing down my cheeks , again and again my vision blurred .
It was Alina's broken , helpless words which shattered my heart .
I was so caught up with my work and preparation for the launching of our latest collection that I didn't give much time to her . She was on her right to get angry with me but she didn't.  She carry on holding up a facade and continued burying her insecurities in her heart.
I am such a bad mother . Why I didn't noticed this ? I had noticed change in her jolly attitude.  I thought it is due to exam stress but no , I was wrong it was all because of my negligence.
She is sleeping with wet lashes and grieving heart.
I read it several time tracing the wet spots. I put it back where it was and walk towards my baby I stroked her hair then bent down and kissed her forehead and sat down beside her.
A sob escaped from my mouth and my lips were trembling . Fixing her quilt I move away from her cause I don't want to wake her up.
But tomorrow I will talk to her about this in sha Allah!