Endless Seduction | JENLISA

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Jennie's POV

I kissed her back but only for a second because suddenly all I could see was Lisa's face. I quickly realized what the hell I was doing and drew my head back. It felt nothing, it meant nothing. I didn't feel anything but guilt and shame. She looked so full of hope, so happy. I wished I could take back what I had done. Loneliness could make you do stupid things it out your defenses at an all time low. There was nothing more I wanted at the moment but to leave and ran to my room. And so i did. I said bye to Miyeon and ran.

As soon as I got in my room, the mask fell and so did the tears. In the day, I make out that I'm fine, that I'm tough, but when the night comes everything just hits me all over again. I missed her but I knew this had to stop. It was exhausting and it was taking a toll on me. I needed to stop crying myself to sleep. I needed to stop thinking about her. It was too painful for me. I gave all I could give her and that was enough. I'd made my decision now. I knew what I had to do. This had to end somewhere and i thought now would be the perfect time. I wanted to be happy again.

I opened my sidetable drawer and rummaged for my phone. Lisa had been texting and calling me but I never had the guts to answer or read any of her calls and messages. I opened her last message.

I miss you.

Deleted. I felt a tight squeeze in my heart but I ignored it. I deleted all 200 of the messages she sent me, her number, and our pictures together in my phone. It was as if I was deleting her from my life too. This was for the best, for the sake of my sanity.

Goodbye, Lisa Manoban.

Lisa's POV

It was another one of those days when i felt like i couldn't get up. I couldn't do anything and I felt as though I couldn't get Joy of anything. It was as if life had been sucked out of me since Jennie left. Everything looks and feels dark and bleak. I didn't know how much I could take before I break.

I wanted to sleep and never wake up again... unless Jennie was lying next to me when i wake up. I felt like I was going crazy, maybe I was already crazy. I never thought having your heart broken could hurt so much but it really hurts like nothing i had ever experienced.

My phone rang. I ignored it until if finally went quiet. It rang again. Pissed off. I reached for my phone over the bed side table. I thought it was my dad calling me to scold me because I didn't go to work today but it was my lawyer's number.

"Good afternoon, Ms. Lalisa Manoban." Said Atty. Koo on the other line.

" Attorney, do you have any news regarding the divorce?" I asked.

"Actually I do. Do you have time to talk? " He asked.

" Yes, of course. " I answered, my voice slightly elevated.

"Great! I'll be waiting for you at Sala bistro." He said. We said goodbye to each other and I hang up the phone. I jumped out of bed and went straight to the shower. This was nerve-wracking for me. I couldn't wait to hear what my lawyer had to say. I was praying and hoping that it would be good news. There was nothing more I wanted than to end this agony and be with Jennie again. I had two lawyers. One in Italy to fix the divorce and my personal lawyer here in the Korea. They were both best in their field. I was counting on them. I didn't want to spend another day without Jennie. My sweet, beautiful Jennie.

I put on my clothes after getting out of the shower and drying myself and drove to the restaurant. It only took me fifteen minutes to do all that. I saw atty. Koo sitting on one of the tables, looking out the window and sipping from a glass, as soon as I entered the restaurant. I came up to him and his eyes turned to me, looking up.