Oneshots

skyzan

it's so hard to think of titles! I'm sorry for changing pov so much.

Adam pov-
I say in the corner of the room, shaking and breathing heavily. please... make it stop... I was having another panic attack.

"he won't love you..."
"no one loves a worthless FAGGOT like you!"
"they're using you..."

the voices will whisper, i crawl over to my phone. I text max, "please, help me." I type with shaking hands. "what happened?!" he texted back. "just, when you get here come up to my room." I type, spelling many things wrong. I drop my phone after that, curling into a ball on the floor. holding my head, "make it stop!" I scream, rocking. I hear a door open, then another. I look up at max, "m-make them s-stop... please" I whisper, he runs over and hugs me. "shh, it's going to be okay..." max whispers. I wrap my arms around his waist, "m-m-make the v-voices s-stop... t-they won't s-stop..." I beg max, not noticing how pathetic I look. my tears dampen maxed jacket, he just rocks me slowly, whispering sweet nothing's to help me feel better. eventually I cry my self to sleep.

max pov~
I sigh when Adam finnaly falls asleep, it's not the first time he's had a panic attack, i know that much. but I've never experienced one, why did he text me of all people? I just lay against the wall with Adam asleep, his arms still wrapped tightly around my waist. I text Ross saying i would be staying at Adams. I wonder what it was about, again, why text me of all people? I run my hand up and down Adams back as he wakes up, "huh?" Adam whispered absent mindedly. "good your awake" I say, he looks up at my face. his face turned red and he let go, "I'm sorry you had to see that..." he says, rubbing his arm nervously. "nah it's okay, i don't mind, just why did you text me of all people?" I ask. he looks down, "I don't know... but really, I'm sorry. but thank you for helping me, how could I ever repay you?" he asked, looking me in the eyes.

I smile, ignoring the... dirty side of my mind, "you don't have to, you being safe and happy is enough for me." I say. he blushes. "o-okay... while your here, can i get you anything?" he asked. I smile, shaking my head. "let's just watch a movie or something." I suggest, he nods. we stand up and move to the couch in his living room. halfway through the move I lay my head in his lap, acting normal.

"does it happen often?" I ask randomly, he hums in question. "the panic attacks. do you have them often?" I refrase my question. he thinks for a second. "yeah, kinda. but they're not that bad normally. this one of the worse ones I've had in a long time." he explained. I nod, then we fall back into silence.

once the movie ended I closed my eyes, Adam ran his hand through my hair, i hum in approval. he continues, we just sit in silence. soon I fall asleep.

Adam pov~
I smile softly at max, he looked so calm like this. we have work tomorrow too... I lay down properly, and rest max on my chest. I let myself fall asleep, my hand still tangled in max's hair.

-next morning-

I wake up before max, so I continue running my hand through his hair. I look at the time, i should wake him. I shake max awake. he looks up at me, "it's almost time to go to work, you should get ready." I whisper, he nods. max stands up, he walks out to his car and I walked to my room.

I get dressed and grab my keys, driving to work. I get there first and walk in, looking down. I lay down on the couch in the main room. my mind reeling from my time with max, i wish it didn't have to stop... "adams! wheres he- are yous deads?" I hear Barney ask. I open my eyes, "nope, not yet." I say. he looked at me, "damnits." he says. I roll my eyes, if only they knew... Barney and red go to their respective offices and I don't move. can I be dead? please? life would be so much simpler for everyone.