Unpredictable. [Guren Ichinose x Reader] ➥ Book 1. [Editing]

Unpredictable ~ Chapter 39.

-Y/N's POV-
"Pip, I can't do it, I really can't do it." I was hyperventilating and in tears as I sat on my bed, my hands tugging at my hair.

"Y/N calm down, you're going to hurt yourself!" Pip exclaimed alarmed, gently trying to pry my hands out of my hair and grab a hold of them,

"I can't, I can't"

Today was the day and it was hitting me hard; call me dramatic- but my life is about to end.

"I know, sweetheart, I know." She embraced me,

"Y/N, we have to go soon wha-?" My mum walked in and her expression fell as soon as she saw the state I was in,

"Oh honey..." she immediately rushed to me, pulling me into her chest,

"Mum, I can't do this. How am I going to survive this, oh my gosh." I sobbed into her chest as she cradled me like a child,

"I'll leave you be." Philippa bowed before leaving my room,

"Shh." My mum soothingly rubbed my back, in an attempt to comfort me.

Not once did she utter about any chances of escape; she herself knew that would never happen.

"Please calm down, Y/N, deep breaths now..."

I attempted to calm myself down, but even though my sobbing had stopped my heart was still pounding and my mind was racing with never ending misfortunes that were bound to come with this god forsaken marriage.

"Are you better now?" She looked me in the face,

"No, sorry." I wiped my tear stained face with my sleeve,

"I know this isn't what you want to hear, but you're going to have to go into it with a strong mind. I promise I'll try and let you stay here for as long as I can but I can't guarantee it."

"I don't mind, just please get me away from that monster." I whispered,

She said nothing, pursing her lips into a thin line, before sighing, "We have to go," she pet my head,

I sadly nodded, standing up and grabbing my bag.

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It was impossible for me to smile; even as the assistants tied my kimono, even as the makeup artists applied my makeup and even as the hairstylists styled my hair; not once did I crack a smile, not even my usual fake one.

I now remained with 3 assistants who were doing the final checks, when my mum entered with a tray carrying 4 teacups with tea. She also wore a kimono, but it was much simpler than mine.

"Here you go, ladies." She placed the tray down on the coffee table,

"I'm not thirsty." I muttered blankly,

"How about you girls?" She turned to the assistants,

"Oh, we're fine ma'am..." one answered,

"Oh no, I insist. Please." She gestured to them and nodded,

They seemed afraid of offending my mother so they all took a teacup and drank the tea.

"Ah, I forgot something. I'll be right back." She rushed out of the room,

I sat there bored, staring off into the distance as the assistants continued to tamper with my hair and whatnot.