when i'm gone

make me normal

"uhmm... ok? but, won't it be hard? since, you know, you're famous n shit?" pepper burst into the room with her tongue lolling out. billie sat down and pepper slobbered all over her neck and cheek, "i can disguise myself. come on, take me somewhere i don't have to go to. make me feel normal, please..." billie begged as she scratched pepper's face. "ok. fine. put on some glasses and a jeans jacket or something. try some leggings," i patted her head. "ew, gross. i actually don't have leggings... have any?" i giggled, "i packed some." i went through my overnight bag and pulled out a pair of black lulu lemon leggings. i held them up for her. "do it!" i laughed excitedly. i hadn't seen billie wear leggings in years.

billie slipped on the tight leggings that shaped her perfect hourglass body. her ass looked huge. "damn... you should wear leggings for often!" i grabbed her booty. "hey!" she swatted my hand. billie put on a regular t and one of maggie's jean jackets. "i feel disgusting! people can't judge me in this..." billie groaned. "you asked for this, love." maggie agreed to let us go, but to call if anything got hectic. we hopped in billie's car and drove to my favorite spot that i hadn't visited in weeks. the book store. "i hate how you like to read," billie took the keys out of her car as she parallel parked perfectly between two cars. "i used to come here whenever you were dancing!" i held her hand and dragged her to the romance section.

we sat down against the bookshelves, our knees tucked up to our chests. i smiled at her as she watched me pick out a book. "this one looks interesting," i opened it up and could smell the fresh pages that seemed untouched. billie rested her head on my shoulder and looked up at me with her bottom lip out and puppy dog eyes. "read to me!" billie pleaded. "don't have to ask me twice." i began reading her the novel of a boy who had to move away from his girlfriend and loved her ever since, but finds her years later and married with two children. they end up having an affair and she abandons everything for him. the story made me somewhat uncomfortable. the idea about affairs...

i paused momentarily on page 256 to see if billie was really listening. to my surprise she was still awake and was knowing on her nails seriously. "why'd you stop?" she looked up at me again. suddenly, her phone dinged and a text from maggie showed.

maggie: "time to come back! check the time. we leave in 45."

we both looked at the time at the top of billie's iphone x and saw it was 1:30. we had been in here for hours. "fucking annoying as hell," billie leaned off me and glared at her feet that were spread awkwardly in a butterfly position on the old carpet of the book store. i could tell she was disappointed. i think i really distracted her from her other life known as "billie eilish". i think she felt like william today. like a teenager with time on her hands. i was very proud of myself for achieving this. "hey, it's ok. we can do this when you have a break! every day! i promise. pinky promise!" i took her hand in mine and wrapped my pinky around hers. she looked back up at me with glossy blue eyes and a quivering smile.