Past Love

Nightmares

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"Mm,you like that don't you"..
"Stupid bitch"*slap*..
"You gone always be mine"
*Deep gasp*...It was just a dream.I've been having nightmares every since I came back from the hospital.Doc said that it is a strong possibility that I was gonna have PTSD due to what happened.It hasn't hit bad..yet.I hope it doesn't get bad.I just want to go back to sleep.When I turned over,I noticed Kee. wasn't there.For like the last week he been out all night and hone in the morning.It's 7:30 in the morning.What the fuck can he be doing.You know what I'm not gone stress.I just can't help but think,what if he is cheating.Maybe he saw my scars and thought I was ugly.Or he couldn't handle what happened.I don't know,but if anyone knows anything,it's Dell.
*Facetime Ringing*
"Wassup rat"-me
"Wassup"he said sluggish
"Wassup? That's all I get.What's wrong?"-me
"Me and Lashawn ain't been to good Say.I mean I know we have our lil arguments here and there but it's real bad.We ain't been talking for 3 days straight and if we do,it's a fight"-Dell
"Imma talk to her"-me
"No don't do that cuz that's just gonna make shit worse" he said in a low tone."On a happy note,Rex is throwing a lil shin-dig and want us to pop out"-Dell
"Ion know...you don't think that's weird, a pregnant girl,belly bout as big as a damn bus,at a party full of weed and alcohol-"-me
"Pump ya tits sid.Ain't nun gone happen to you or my niece or nephew"he said interrupting me.Oh wait,shit,I forgot that we never got to reveal the gender..well,genders so nobody knows.
"Why you making that face?"-Dell
"No reason"I tried to as calm as a could "Aye can you come get me"-me
"Yea,be there in 10.Wait,you hiding something.Wassup?"-Dell
"I'll tell you in the car"-me
*Hangs Up*
I got in the car and he was looking mad as hell.
"Ew,what's wrong with you"-me
"Muthafucka you had me outside for bout a fucking hour"-me
"Aye nigga you try to find and squeeze on some clothes with 2 babies in you-"I said as I stopped my self
"Two babies?...."Your having twins?"-Dell
"Fuck...yes.You weren't supposed to know"-me
"Awwww,that's so cute"he said mocking me in a baby voice
"Fuck you"-me
"Uh uh you ain't doing no more of that.That's why you look how you look now"he laughing "Aye why didn't Keem just come get you"-Dell
"He ain't been home for bout 3 days"-me
"What you mean?"-Dell
"He been in and out,no goodmorning or goodnight cuz he ain't there when I go to sleep or wake up" I said tearing up a little "I thought he was with you"I said wiping my tears and staring out the window.
When I got back home,I saw his car parked outside.Lord give me strength.He was in the shower when I came in so I just made me some ice cream and watched tv.
"Hey baby"he said walking towards me for a kiss but I denied it. "Look,I know your mad and I'm sorry"-Keem
"Mad ain't even how I feel right now Hakeem.Where the fuck have you been?" Iasked getting loud
"I ain't doing this shit"he said walking to the room
"Where the fuck do you think you going" I said following him.He was sitting on the bed."So you deaf now?"I said getting in his face.
"Aye girl you better back the fuck up"he said getting up in my face
"Nigga you ain't gone do a fuck thang.I wish the fuck you would!" I said getting out of his face and walking to the closet
"What the fuck are you doing Asaili?"-Keem
"What it look like.I'm packing ya shit"-me
"The hell you are"he said trying to stop me
"Move nigga"I said trying to get pass him."Move,I'm not fucking playing wit you"-me.He grabbed my arms tight,pulled me close and told me to stop tripping
"Fuck you nigga.If you ain't wanna fuck wimme after all this shit then you should've just told me that.My fucking bad if my bruises are too damn ugly for your eyes or my emotions are too fucked up for your life but ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS BE FUCKING HONEST WIT ME!!!!"I screamed
"Fuck is you talking bout girl?"-Keem
"Ow ow oww"I said as I felt this sharp pain in my stomach.I don't know what is was but that shit hurt like a muthafucka.Keem tried to carry me to the bed but I just walked.I sat on the bed and held my stomach and just whispered "I'm sorry" to my babies.
"Baby what's wrong?"-Keem
I just gave him a look.I took deep breaths then asked "Afe you fucking around on the side"
"Hell naw"he said quickly
"Just tell me the truth Hakeem" I said getting just a little louder
"Stop all that yelling.That's probably why you hurting now"-Keem.I gave him a look
"No"-Keem
"I need some space.Sleep in the other room.I don't feel like going through this shit"-me.After all that,I just went to sleep.
"Hey baby,you miss me?"
I wake up in a panic.I wish I could just dreaming bout Rashad.I'm in the kitchen getting some milk and I feel somebody grab me.At first I was scared but then I saw it was Keem.
"Baby,what are you doing up?what's wrong?"-Keem
"Nothing I was just thirsty"-me.I think he knew I was lying.It was a weird silence between us
"Look I apologize for earlier.I really am telling the truth.I haven't been with anyone else. I just been dealing with them bitches we got locked up at the warehouse but I'm here now and that's all that matters."-Keem
For some reason,that shit high key turned me on.We began kissing and he put me on the counter but I stopped and got down.I tried to walk away but he pulled me back.
"Just let me hold you"he said softly.We just stood there.So silent and peaceful.It's like run world was at a pause.