Banana Bus Squad Preferences

Sad/Depressed-

VanossGaming (Evan Fong)-

You just felt like you aren't enough for him...sure you grew up with Evan and you love him more than life but...I don't know you just have a gut feeling that he can just do better than you and because Evan is busy and whenever he makes videos or hangs with his friends, he just looks so happy and telling him that you feel this way would make him upset and you didn't want to be a bother or make him upset...plus you thought it was kinda ridiculous...so you kept that depressed feeling to yourself...

Evan was currently in his office recording videos with his friends and you can hear him laughing next door. You were in his room curled under the covers trying your best not to cry but your thoughts were just destroying you and you don't know what to do besides suffer in silence...

You clenched your fists tightly against the blanket. You shoved your head into the pillow, biting your lip so hard you drew blood. You felt the lump in the back of your throat, your heart raced, your chest hurt...you didn't know how much longer you could keep it in.

You squeezed your eyes tightly shut and took a few deep shaky breaths. Evan realized the time as he ended his video with the others. He hasn't seen nor heard from you in a while, he was actually beginning to worry. He got up from his chair and headed to his room,

"Hummingbird?" Evan called out, you gasped as your body started to tremble. He was now concerned and worried as he headed over to the bed "Y/N are you okay?" He asked, you were afraid to say anything cause you knew if you said anything you would burst into tears. Evan took the covers off you to see your trembling body. You covered your face with your hands trying so very very very hard to keep it together,

"Hey, Hey, Hey, what's wrong?" Evan asked now being very worried and concerned. He gently grabbed your hands and pulled your shaking body on his lap. He hugged you tightly and rubbed your head and back. He gently rocked you as you gripped onto his shirt and hid your face in his chest "Baby what's wrong, please tell me" Evan pleaded.

You just sighed and sobbed in his chest which made him sigh as he held you close, kissed your head and waited until you stopped crying...which took a long time but to you it felt good to get it all out...you just hated you brought Evan into this useless mess.

When you managed to stop crying. Evan pried you off him and cupped your red, puffy and tear stained cheeks. He looked at you with worry and concern "Baby what happened?" He asked wiping your face of tears, you sighed "I-I just don't feel good enough" you whispered as your voice was basically gone. Evan furrowed his eyebrows in confusion "What do you mean?" he asked softly,

You sighed and shrugged "I just feel like you can do better than me" you whispered shamefully. Evan sighed "Baby we've known each other forever and no one will ever ever replace you. I love you more than you could ever imagine and you are good enough and you will always be good enough for me and I love you. If you ever ever feel sad or insecure please come talk to me because I don't like when you're upset but it gives me the opportunity to make you smile and laugh because I love when you're happy and seeing you sad makes me not only feel like a terrible best friend but terrible boyfriend cause I don't know if I made you upset or what made you upset and I don't want to say the wrong thing and I'm rambling here but what I'm trying to get at is even tho I'm terrible at serious situations whenever you have a problem, just know you can always come to me and I will do whatever I can to make you smile and laugh" He rambled, you giggled and smiled at his nervous rambling,

He smiled softly and pampered your face with kisses which made you blush and smile "I love you so much" You whispered, he smiled and pressed his forehead against yours "I love you so much too Hummingbird and I always will" he said and pecked your lips a few times which made you blush and smile and felt so much better.