Ludic Selcouth #1: Cracked Beat

Hit #14

A couple of months have passed and with those months, I feel so genuinely happy. Our relationship is still going strong. May mga maliliit na away pero hindi naman lumalala. We didnʼt spend our christmas together because they went out of the country. Nagkasama lang kami noong new year. We had our media noche on their threshold. There, we announced our relationship to Tita Hada, Tito Sedi and mama.

They were happy about it. Sina Tito ay mukhang hindi na nagulat. Nang makauwi lang kami sa unit ni mama ay tsaka niya ako pinagpaliwanag. Pina-ulanan niya lang naman ako ng mga tanong na akala moʼy si boy abunda.

Now, itʼs February and weʼre both busy. They are going to release their album 2 months from now. Theyʼre so busy with the lots of photoshoots and recordings. Minsan ay hindi kami nagkikita ng ilang araw dahil na rin sa finals na namin next month. Iʼm studying really hard to pass it.

We are trying to understand each otherʼs schedule. Pero minsan ay pumupuslit pa siya sa management nila para makita ako. Iʼll always scold him for that. He doesn't need to do that, we can see each other when we have our free time.

But him, being stubborn, he wonʼt listen. Katulad ngayon. May meeting sila pero tumakas na naman siya.

“Tase go back to your meeting now. Pasasakitin mo na naman ang ulo ni Ate Gail.” Iʼm currently doing some paper works and plates. Nasa unit na ako at kaka-uwi lang, he fetched me from school actually.

Sobrang dami naming ginagawa. May mga araw na iniiyakan ko na dahil sa stress but Tase would always guide me. Since napagdaanan niya na rin ʼto ay nag-ooffer siya ng tulong at binibigyan ako ng tips.

“Theyʼre going to call me if I need to be there.” napabuntong hininga na lang ako at tumingin sa kaniya. Heʼs just lying on my bed comfortably while looking at some of my paper works.

“We can just see each other again after your meeting.” hindi niya ako pinansin at nagpatuloy lang sa pagtingin sa paper works ko.

“Tase cʼmon, stop being a pain in the ass to your management. You need to go back.”

“And what? We wonʼt see each other again for days?” irita niyang sabi kaya dahan-dahan akong umalis sa harapan ng laptop at nilapitan siya.

“I told you we can see each other after your meeting. You just need to finish it.” itʼs already 7 pm but Iʼm willing to sacrifice my sleep for a couple of hours so we can still meet each other.

“You know we canʼt. Our meeting will last for hours. You need to sleep.” I sighed heavily.

“Thatʼs why you need to go back now. Weʼll just call and text each other then.” nanlalambing kong hinaplos ang kamay niya.

“I miss you, Zemira. We didnʼt see each other for 3 days and now you want me to go back,” he said coldly.

“You need to be there. Your bandʼs album is almost done.” ayokong maging dahilan ng mga pagrerebelde niya sa management. Heʼs a busy musician, they all are. Unfair sa mga kabanda niya kung palagi siyang ganito.

“Fine.” tumayo siya at akma nang aalis pero pinigilan ko ang braso niya.

“Tase... donʼt be like this. I miss you too but you canʼt keep on doing this. Weʼre trying to understand each otherʼs schedule right?” he didn't say anything that it made me nervous. I know heʼs upset. I hugged him.

“I promise weʼll make it up to each other. But now... just focus on your band, okay? Hindi naman ako mawawala.”

“How can we make it up to each other? After your graduation, weʼll immediately start our world tour. Youʼll be busy with your finals until next month, that means we wonʼt have time. We just have 2 months left before I leave, Zemira.” hindi ako nakapagsalita dahil sa sinabi niya. Heʼs right. 2 months pa at mapapasabak na kami sa ldr.