Azaadiyan

Part 5 - Give Up

Azaan's POV.

Who is she?

Why is her face telling me something?

Have I seen her somewhere?

Why does she has such an innocent face?

And her smile is... mesmerizing..

Her eyes, her lips, the way she talks.

Everything about her.

Who would thought that I would ever notice a girl?

I don't know what's happening to me but... something is going on.

Everytime I see her.

Everytime I see her in pain.

Everytime she says my name.

Something happens to me.

It's the first time I'm ever being this way.

Asiyah.

Isn't it such a pretty name?

No, I can't.

I can't like a girl.

I can't fall again.

I can't be broken again.

I don't want to.

I need to let her be.

I need to not care.

Even if it's really hard.

I'm not good enough and I don't want this.

I know how to control myself.

I know how to not cross the boundaries.

I'll be friends with her.

Nothing more, nothing less.

And either way, she hates me.

A lot, I know she does.

At least she does.

Or else... It would be hard.

" dude what's up with you these days?" Aryan asks me.

We were at a bar drinking.

We don't drink a lot, just sometimes.

" what do you mean?" I ask him.

" you think I'm dumb? you can hide it from everyone but me" he says.

" I really don't get it" I tell him.

"did your plans change? wanna get marry or what?"

" what makes you think I'm trying to marry now?" I ask him.

" you're always after that girl"

"what girl?"

"the girl that's attracting everyone's attention since she came here"

I should admit it now but I like to play dumb sometimes.

I took another shot.

" you know I'm not after girls, they're after me"

" yeah right but this time it's reverse"

I got up as I didn't want to talk about this no more.

"where you going?" he asks me.

" mountain house" I said as I leave the bar.

I need to change my mind and rest a bit.

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