Too Opposite!

Attraction 30- His Pain

Mike's Pov

We stayed in that position for how many minutes. She then let go of me nung naging okay na siya, pero nakayuko pa rin siya.

"T-Thank y-you..." she said

"Okay kana?" at dahan-dahan siyang tumango, she then looked at me and smiled

"Salamat talaga ha, pasensya na at nakita mo ako sa ganung sitwasyon, shucks! kahiya talaga!" biro niya at tumawa.

"Care to tell me what's wrong?"

She smiled bitterly and looked up at the sky.

"Nothing, it was just a painful memory, bigla ko lang naalala"

"Ganun ba"

"Yep! Pero okay na ako" then she looked at me and smiled, "Andyan kana eh"

And my heart skipped a beat, I know its somewhat gay but I could feel it. Napayuko ako para umiwas sa tingin niya.

"Puro ka talaga kalokohan"

"Hindi naman ako nagloloko ah! Totoo kaya yun, your hug healed my wounds! Hahaha! Charing lang! Hahaha!"

I looked at her again and was a bit amazed, she was laughing her heart out but I could still feel her pain. Huminto siya sa pagtawa at tumingin sa akin, hindi ako umiwas ng tingin.

"Wag mo akong masyadong titigan baka malusaw ako" biro niya

"How do you do that?" I asked out of the blue.

"Do what?"

"How could you laugh and be happy while still suffering?"

Nagulat siya sa tanong ko at napangiti ng konti.

"Paano nga ba?" then she looked away, "Hmmm, siguro dahil natangap ko na lahat na kahit balik-balikan ko ang nakaraan ko I could never change the fact that I did it" she sighed heavily

"Kahit alam mo na hindi mo sinasadya?"

Marahan siya tumango.

"Ang magagawa ko na lang ngayon ay mabuhay para sa taong yun at tanggapin lahat ng parusa"

"Ganun ba..."

"Ganun nga"

And a long silence, naisip ko ganun na lang ba yun? Should we just accept the fact that we did it eventhough we didn't want it to happen? Wala na ba tayong karapatan mabuhay ng malaya ng hindi hinuhusgahan?

"Paano kung hindi mo na kaya? Paano kung gusto mo ng kumawala? You didn't want it to happen, that's why its called an accident"

Ayoko na kasi, I don't want to feel the pain, I've had enough of the pain. Why can't anyone see it.

"Well..." panimula niya, "You just have to move on...accept the pain, then after acknowledging the pain, let it go and be free from it and accept the present, stop wallowing about the past, kaya nga past eh tapos na"

"So kalimutan na? Yun lang? Forget it?"

"Mike ang sabi ko accept hindi forget, hindi ka naman nakikinig eh" napasimangot pa siya

"It still the same"

"Halalalala! Anong the same ka diyan! Ang Forget, kalimutan ang Accept naman tanggapin"

"So?"

"Hay naku bakit ba ako nagkagusto sa'yo?" Nakasimangot niyang sabi,

"I know magkaiba sila but in moving on, both have the same function" totoo naman, those two words means one thing if you want to be free from the pain

"You're wrong, both are needed in moving on, not both are the same" seryoso niyang sabi, "Mike if you will only forget the pain it will eventually come back, masasaktan ka ulit dahil kinalimutan mo lang eh wala kang ginawa para mawala yun forever. While if you accept the pain or acknowledge it you will eventually learn to forgive then comes the word forget, di ba mas okay siya kung ganun?"

Napaisip ako sa sinabi niya kaya natahimik ako.

"Mike in moving on there is a process, you can't just say that you've moved on because you have forgot about it. Paano kung naalala mo na naman yun at nasasaktan ka pa? Eh walang kwenta ang pamove on move on mo, mabuti pang magbigti ka na lang....pero joke lang yun ah" tapos tumawa siya ng mahina.

"So magbibigti kana?" tanong ko sa kanya

"Bakit ko naman gagawin yun?"

"You haven't move on yet"

"Well...yeah I haven't but Im getting there"

"Ganun ba..."

"I have to, because how can I face my present when I couldn't face my past, when you have accepted your past that's when you can say that you are totally free from the pain"

Then another long silence, iniisip ko kasi ang sinabi niya.

"Naku! Anong oras na ba?" biglang tanong ni Shanna, tumingin kami sa paligid at medyo madilim na din agad siyang tumayo at linahad ang kamay niya sa akin, "Uwi na tayo"

I looked at her smiling face, wala ng sakit, it was real smile. I accepted her hand and stood up.

"Yeah, uwi na tayo"

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Nakauwi na kami ng bahay at as usual sinalubong kami ng ingay.

"Yow! Mike, Shanna" bati ni Ethan

"Saan kayo galing?" tanong ni Cristina

"Diyan lang sa park, nagpahangin kasi ako at nakita lang ako ni Mike" sagot ni Shanna

"Akyat na ako, tawagin niyo lang ako paghapunan na" sabi ko sabay alis ng paakyat na ako

"Mike!" tawag ni Shanna kaya napalingon ako, "Salamat ulit" she smiled

"Wala yun" then I went upstairs, ng marating ko ang kwarto ko ay agad akong napahiga sa kama ko. Napatingala lang ako sa kawalan at nakatingin lang sa kisame. Iniisip ko ang lahat ng sinabi ni Shanna sa akin kanina.

how can I face my present when I couldn't face my past, when you have accepted your past that's when you can say that you are totally free from the pain

Accept my past? Have I really done that?

Tumayo ako at may kinuha sa drawer malapit sa kama ko. I took out a picture frame. In the picture I saw a beautiful girl smiling while wearing a white dress, her long brown hair was blown away.

"Isabel...." I whispered, "Should I really have to accept the fact that you're gone?"

Flashback...

"Mike!" masayang tawag ni Isabel sa akin she was wearing a white dress and happily waving at me, Isabel Montecilla, a very talented figure skater, a beautiful and sweet lady and she.......

is the love of my life

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Yohoooo!!! Yeahey! salamat po sa mga nagbabasa nito at talagang umabot siya ng 3k charot lang hehehe salamat talaga it is already a big thing for me, hope you will continue reading this and sana mag leave din kayo ng comments to let me know kung oks pa ba siya or OA na hahaha! Sorry sa typo errors niya, promise I will edit this once Im done with the whole story hehehe.

Thanks and Godbless you all! :-D

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