Payton- never know the ending

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by MYSTICMANNERS

by MYSTICMANNERS

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Room 126, 11:45pm

Y/n: "Hazel wait no please I didn't mean it" the tall blonde boy said as he ran after his love "didn't mean what James?! You didn't mean to kiss her? Didn't mean to play with my feelings?! What is wrong with you?!" The girl was in tears, she knew she would have to stay strong for her own benefit but she just couldn't do it
Nurse: we're closing up the ward in a minute Y/n
She told me as she opened the door to my boyfriend's room ever so slightly
I nodded to her
Y/n: I'll just finish the chapter
I smiled as I continued reading
Y/n: "no Hazel! I don't know what I'm sorry for but at the moment I'm sorry for loving you!" He shouted back to her, the rain soaking the both of them. "Well then stop." Was the last thing Hazel said before running home, alone, in the dark, getting wet by the rain.
I smiled as I closed the book and placed it back in the drawer next to Payton's bed
Y/n: I'll be back in the morning my prince
I said as I put my jacket on and grabbed my bag before giving him a kiss on the head.

I wonder if he can hear me I thought to myself as I walked home. Once again alone.

Room 126, 6:00am

Nurse: good morning Y/n, we're just checking Payton's breathing, he's doing really well so far
She smiled as I entered the room and sat back down in the chair I have claimed over 2 months ago
Payton and I have completed 3 books since he's been in hospital, I can't wait for him to help me finish this one when he wakes up
Nurse: I'll leave you two to it
She smiled before leaving

Y/n: I got you something Pay
I said as I placed a ring on his finger
Y/n: it says "my forever" because that's what you are
I kissed his hand before moving him hair out of his face
Y/n: when you wake up I have a surprise for you
I giggled before just talking to him like I do everyday for the next 16 hours that I'm here

Room 126, 5:56pm

Y/n: so your mom let Timber go in your room and he kinda messed up your drum set so we bought you a new one for when you wake up, and we even got you a custom guitar
I ran through all the exciting things I did when I got back to Joanne's last night, sure I now only get 4 hour sleep but it's worth it
Y/n: and we made you a little charity because we don't really want you spending your money on stuff that you need here
I told him as I took another bite of my food

Room 126, 9:23pm

Y/n: and anyways the doctors recon that you'll be out before hard to breathe drops
I said as I laid my head on his lap, my hand holding his, my thumb creating soft circles on the back of his hand

Room 126 11:34pm

Y/n: "you lied" "and I said I'm sorry" the crying carried on back and forth, both unaware of that dangers before them "sorry isn't good enough James!" She shouted to the boy, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath-
Nurse: five minutes Y/n
I just nodded before continuing my story

This cycle happened for months upon months, weeks, days.

Until one day everything changed

I was reading the last half of the chapter when Something started pinging, I looked up to see the monitor flashing and Payton's heart.... it had stopped

Y/n: shit... doctor! Nurse somethings wrong!
I shouted as I ran out of the room,
All the sudden around 5 doctors ran in, a nurse rubbing my back as I awaited for my boyfriend to be okay
They were performing CPR on him, using a breathing mask to help him along the way and all I could do was pray that Payton would pull through

Come on payton, you've got this, you've fought a lot worse then this.
These were the only thoughts that raced around my head.
He needed to pull through, he needed to be okay

All the sudden everything stopped- the doctors looked towards each other, the nurse stopped rubbing my back and held onto my shoulders, everything was in slow motion
Doctor: time of death 9:32pm
I fell back... it hit me like a ton of bricks, he's gone, my baby is gone, my love.
Y/n: no no no you have to save him!
I cried as the nurse pulled me back
Y/n: no please I need him!
I screamed as I let myself just fall to the ground
Doctor: I'm sorry Y/n, he's gone
He's gone-
Those words replayed in my mind as I let more tears fall down my now makeup stained face
Y/n: you said he'd make it! You said-
I was shut off by Jackson who ran into the room and engulfed me into a massive hug
Jackson: shhh it's okay-
I could hear his voice break as he held me
Y/n: he's gone Jackson- Payton's gone
I cried as I turned to looked at him
Jackson: I know Y/n... but we have to be strong for him
He cried into my shoulder
Y/n: I never got to say goodbye... and I never got to finish the story
I hugged him tighter as he pulled me from the room

Room 126, 5:12am

Jackson: I know it's going to be hard Y/n but we have to move passed this for him, this is what he would want
He said as he held me in his arms, we had been sat on the floor outside the place where my boyfriend's lifeless body lay for at least 7 hours now
Y/n: but I just want him
I said quietly as I tear slipped
Jackson: and he wanted you Y/n, he was going to propose to you the night hard to breathe drops
He told me
Y/n: he new I loved him didn't he?
I asked as my voice broke
Nurse: why don't you go and remind him
She smiled as she came out of the room
I looked up at her shocked, she opened the door...
he was there

Slightly sat up... his hair messy, wires attached to him everywhere, his little smile lit up the room as I entered
Y/n: oh my god
I said quickly as I started crying and ran over to him
Y/n: don't scare me like that ever again
I cried as I gave him a quick kiss
Payton: hey beautiful
He smiled lightly which made me look at him for a quick second before turning away and crying into my hands, his hand found my back as he rubbed over it slightly
Y/n: I thought I lost you
I cried slightly as I turned around to look at him, my breathing hitching as he placed his hand on my face, I rubbed my cheek on his palm a little bit before looking at him, waiting for it to all be a dream
Payton: you're not getting rid of me that easy
But I never woke up

I CRIED SO MUCH WHILE WRITING THIS

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