Memories of You (Completed)

Chapter 30

Everything that has happened was just like a dream. I wished it was, but it's not.

Aidan and I became good friends in the end. We hang out sometimes as I continue my life still being Asha Keina Figueroa. I am not still safe to go back as Blythe Leighton del Fiego.

As for Laoise and Roisin, I have told them the truth and hang out with them sometimes, secretly. Kagaya nga ng sabi ko, ayokong madamay sila dito. I treasure them like a family kaya ayokong may mangyari sa kanilang masama.

“What's up with you and Colm?” bigla ay tanong ni Aidan

Hindi ko din alam. Dahil matapos kong sabihin iyong sinabi ko noon kay Colm ay hindi na ulit kami nagpansinan.

There were times that he tried to come to me and tried to talk to me, pero ako iyong umiiwas sa kanya. Ako ang may ayaw na kausapin siya. I don't know what's wrong with me either. I was the one to ask him to stay with me no matter what happened, but I'm giving him reasons to leave me and I keep on pushing him away.

Siguro nga ay hindi pa ko talagang handa mag-entertain ng iba. Hindi naman sapat at tama na mayroon akong kaunting nararamdaman sa kanya para i-take advantage iyong nararamdaman niya para sakin. Hindi ako ganung klase ng tao.

Besides, masyado pang magulo ang buhay ko ngayon. At kagaya ng mga kaibigan ko, ayoko ring madamay si Colm sa gulong meron ako. I want to protect him as much as I can and I think this is the best way to protect him. Dahil kapag ginamit nila si Colm laban sakin, baka dun ako tuluyang matalo.

“You don't expect me to entertain someone right after what happened between us, do you?” sabi ko sa kanya na kanyang ikinatawa ng mahina

“Chill. I was just asking you. Hahaha. Pero totoo, if you'll fall in love again, I want you to fall in love with him. Pero ayoko din at the same time.” sabi ni Aidan

I raised my brow after hearing what he has said. I mean, what does he mean by that?

“Are you confusing me?” tanong ko sa kanya

He faked a smile then looked at me directly in the eyes and it's like he wanted to say something, pero may pumipigil sa kanya which is hindi ko alam kung ano.

“There are things you still don't know. You know, I have given you too much heartache and I don't want you to feel that again if ever you fall for him.” sabi ni Aidan

“What do you mean?” tanong ko sa kanya saka ako pekeng tumawa

Pero imbes na sagutin ako ay nagkibit-balikat siya at hindi na nagsalita pa ulit saka siya nag-iwas ng tingin.

Why do people always leave questions in my mind? Mga hindi nasasagot na katanungang iisipin ko na naman sa mahabang panahon.

“C'mon, tell me.” pangungulit ko kay Aidan

“Nah uh. It's not my story to tell. Wala ako sa posisyon. Besides, hindi naman yata tamang sakin manggaling.” seryosong sabi ni Aidan

Now, there's something I don't know here that might break my heart the moment I find out. But....what is it?

“May iba ba?” tanong ko sa kanya

Hindi siya nagsalita. Ni hindi niya nga ko tinignan. Wala siyang reaksyon sa sinabi ko.

Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit naisip kong may iba. I mean, they say I am Colm's first. O mali ba ang alam ko? Baka mali ang sinabi nila sakin. Baka niloloko nila ko. Baka pinapaikot lang nila ko. Baka nagsisinungaling sila sakin. Alin ba ang totoo?