Still In The Dark | BILLIE EILISH

part 2

(Billie's Pov)

"billie brickers here" my mum shouted and I ran out my room

"brickerrrr!!" I shouted jumping into his arms. I haven't seen him in 3 weeks but that's 3 weeks too long

"billieeee!" he mocked back squeezing me

I grabbed his hand and dragged him into my room, both of us collapsing on my bed.

"so... that song was about Trig and how you're coping isn't it"

"yeah.. yeah it is"

"Billie, i think it's time for you too let go"

"let go-"

"let me finish" he cut me off "i'm not saying forget about her completely, i'm saying you need to move on and live your life, Trig wanted you to do that and so do i"

"but it hurts" i whispered

"i know it does, but it's been 2 years... i miss her too you know"

"i know.."

"do they know about her?" he was talking about my family

"no.. no they don't"

"maybe it will be easier if you tell them"

"yeah maybe.."

We decided to watch Avengers Endgame because why the fuck not, even if did make us both a teary mess about 7 times throughout the film.

I heard the rattling of keys and Nitro barking outside.

"someone's home" I laughed as Finneas had taken him for a walk with his dog Peaches.

Surprisingly Nitro has been coming out of his shell when it comes to meeting people, he no longer growls at them and gets all protective but don't get me wrong if he senses something off he will and i mean he will become his old self which makes me feel safer.

"Bil it's me" Finneas knocked on my door

"yeah come in where's my baby"

He opened the door and Nitro came pouncing onto me and Bricker

"oh hey man" Finneas said to Bricker

"yo what's good"

"uh Bil can I talk to you for a second? like in my room?"

"yeah..?" i said nervously and got up to follow him

"are you gay?" he just blurted out

"w-what" i laughed awkwardly, taken aback from what he just said

"are you gay?" he repeated

"no.. why?"

"i mean nothing really i'm not against it or anything like i love you for whatever you wana do but this video says otherwise" he pulled out his phone and played the song that I had sung earlier

Ah shit we're doing this

"umm" i began to tear up why the fuck was i crying? i'm so sick of crying

"hey shhh" he wrapped his arms around me "it's okay we don't have to tell mum and dad just yet and i know whatever that song is about means something to you and i'm not going to pressure you into telling me if you're not ready" he reassured me

"thank you" i cried into his chest

"do you want to talk about it tho?"

"i don't know"

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Billie won 3 Billboard awards if you didn't know awww im so proud of her and her fit?? OMDS JHEEZ YES GO OFFFFF