Still In The Dark | BILLIE EILISH

part 39

(Billie's Pov)

I flushed the toilet and went to brush my teeth... again

I keep throwing up and I don't know why, i didn't even have alcohol at the welcome home party yesterday. Maybe I caught a bug or something

"ugh" i groaned climbing back into bed

"you okay? you keep throwing up" Dylan asked

"i'm not sure what's up" i sighed hiding under my blanket

"you're not pregnant are you" he laughed

"bitch you use condoms" i rolled my eyes

I cant be pregnant, he uses condoms so that's literally impossible. I mean yeah my period is 2 weeks late but that happens right?

I ran back into the bathroom, locking the door and opened all the drawers to finally find what I was looking for

a pregnancy test

I keep them for safe keeping you know? just in case

I carefully peed on the stick and set it aside as I waited on the bathroom floor, my back against the door and tears streaming down my cheeks

"babe i'm going to work now" Dylan shouted "i love you" and then I heard the door close

I jumped as my 3 minute timer on my phone went off

Do I really want to look at the results? Fuck no

But I cant be pregnant

I shakily reached for the stick and my heart dropped as two little red lines lay there

No it's not true

I cant be pregnant

What the fuck do I do? It's not possible it can't be

I did what a pregnant person would do, phone to have an ultrasound

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I nervously waited in the room ready to be called. I decided to have a private one as I am literally the Billie Eilish

"Billie" the midwife smiled

"that's me" i forced out and she led me to the bed

"this may be cold" she smiled before putting on the gel

"shit yeah" i laughed as my whole body got goose bumps

My heart was pounding as she put the small device on my stomach, moving around and watching the screen

"there's a little heart beat, congratulations" she beamed

"h-how many weeks" i croaked trying not to have a bread down

"about 6" she smiled

6? But that's not possible! Dylan uses condoms and I haven't slept with-

Oh no no no no please no, 6 weeks ago was when Trig phoned me when she was in Arshtar, he must've taken it off before he forced himself in me

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i see some of you are mad at billie for saying it wasn't rape

we will get to that eventually but for now, she doesn't want to believe he raped her