Still In The Dark | BILLIE EILISH

part 11

(Trig's Pov)

i'm not gona lie, it went better than i expected it to go. I feel guilty for telling her that I never loved her, but it's for the best because it's going to be a while before I come back... and by a while I mean possibly decades..

Arshtar is hunting me.. the place I was sent to multiple times because I was soft. When I got out the hospital, I had gotten threats from them, I moved straight out of LA and went to Texas, I only moved back a week before I got my stripper job here. I'm also a drug dealer but that's not really a surprise now is it. I knew I would be on the run for the rest of my life and I'm okay with that. It's my own personal consequence and I'm not dragging anyone into it. Part of the reason why I didn't try look for Billie. But she can't know this, and she won't. But before I go, I need to get Billie off the drugs, I can't see her like this.

I walked into the park that was nearest to Billie's house and grinned as I saw Nitro playing with Billie. All of a sudden he cocked his head towards me and paused as if he was trying to see if it really was me. I crouched down waiting to see if he would come or not which gladly he started sprinting and barking. He jumped up on my licking my face pushing me to the grass and climbed all over me doing little zooms as his tail wagged rapidly and he barked like a maniac.

"hi boy" i sniffled a bit not realising how much i did actually miss him

He eventually calmed down and I got up still sitting down and he say directly in front on me placing a paw on my knee, panting away. He shuffled closer whining a little and lowered his head on my chest

"i missed you too" i smiled kissing his forehead and mouthed a 'thank you' to Billie

"this doesn't mean i forgive you"

"i know but i'm still grateful"

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Hours later into the day it was nearing the time for Billie to come back and pick Nitro up. She left us alone after 10 minutes which i'm even more grateful for, I got to spend the day with my little boy and I'm so glad I did. The sun was starting to set and it made me think back to when we would sneak out watching the sunrise at 5 in the morning. It's strange how things have changed, I felt so safe watching the sun with Nitro, and I still do.

"you ready to go" Billie mumbled to Nitro who was now greeting her

"take care Trig" she mumbled to me

"wait-" I grabbed her hand without realising "watch the sunset with me.. please.. for old time sake" What the fuck was I even doing?

"seeing as your leaving soon I might as well" she sighed and sat next to me "what are you doing" she chuckled

"i don't even know" i shrugged

I tensed up as I felt Billie rest her head on my shoulder but forced myself to relax as I felt her familiar scent hit my nose

"as much as I hate you, I missed you" she mumbled against my shoulder

"i missed you too.. really i did" i snaked my arm around her waist and pulled her closer loosing myself into the sky that was turning a gorgeous pink colour with spots of purple

"come off the drugs" i whispered

"why.."

"because I hate what it does to you"

"thought you didn't notice.. or care"

"i do more than you think" i mumbled "who's your dealer"

"because your gona know em" she laughed

"who is it" i repeated

"some kid named Snake like who the fuck names them self snake" she burst out laughing. God that laugh

"i'm gona kick his ass" i growled

"you know him?" she looked at me

"he works for me.. another thing i fucked you up with" i groaned

"you sell? trig.. i thought you would've moved on"

"and do what? i'm not like you Billie, i didn't have a family to go back to, or a job to go back to, or fans to go back to. what the fuck was i supposed to do? my qualifications are literally drug dealing and killing people"

"i know.. i'm sorry"

"don't be i should get going anyway"

"oh okay.."

"it was nice to see you Billie, one last time anyway and you Nitro"

"what do you mean one last time? are you not going to see me tomorrow before you leave?" she frowned

"change of plans, am leaving tomorrow"

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3 parts in 1 night bro i need to sleep it's 2 in the fucking morning i have college but luckily online but still why is tomorrow the day i start earlyyyyyy ughhh fuckin hell sleep little bitch