Dakaranata (GXG) (GIRLXGIRL) (GL)

21

Chapter 21 – Monochrome
A small inn built in a corner of ‘Saul’.

So I woke up.

Right next to me is a warm body temperature, a pleasant touch, a faint sweet fragrant smell, and a breath that tickles my neck. Riko was fast asleep.

I got up and gently stroked Riko’s hair.

Her beautiful indigo hair had turned completely black and discolored. ――――No, it’s actually the same indigo hair. It’s just the way I see it.

It’s the same with this room itself. No matter where I look, it’s all white, black, and gray. Every color had disappeared from my world.

―――― And I had no feelings to lament it now.

Sorrow, grief, disappointment… I can’t remember those feelings of ‘sadness’.

Of course, I know that there are such feelings. Rather, until recently I was sad that Hazel had became Undying, and I must have been very sad when my parents died.

…… But now I can’t remember it. Don’t understand. Even if I can remember ever showing that in my memory, I couldn’t even imagine what kind of feeling it was.

Will I lose all my emotions if I keep fighting?

“………… Nu.”

Riko moaned and moved her head a little.

The neck becomes apparent.

Neck.

“…………”

Smoothly, my hand slid from the hair I was stroking toward the nape of her neck.

Comfortable body temperature and smooth touch peculiar to a girl’s skin.

―――― Would you die if you strangle this neck now?

“…………”

Suddenly, the idea occurred to me.

If I think about it, I’ve only killed with a sword and a gun. Because the sword makes me actually feel it as I take a life, it is currently my favorite weapon.

But directly. Yes, by means of strangulation this hand would take a life directly. A blasphemous act that defiles lives with one’s own hands. Forbidden thoughts of trying it with a dear lover.

I gripped Riko’s neck with all my might ――――.

” ――――Serra?”

“Eh!?”

I let go of my hand

―――― What was I thinking now?

Sweat gushed out of my face. But, in inverse proportion to it, blood is drained from my face. My body temperature dropped as if cold water had been poured over me.

Riko opened her eyes and stared at me.

“I, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to….”

“…… What’s wrong?”

“Eh?”

Even though I desperately tried to smooth things over and apologize, Riko’s words made me involuntarily utter a stupid voice.

When I saw it, Riko was rubbing her sleepy eyes. Come to think of it, she was weak in the morning.

I hope you didn’t notice my previous action

However, I tried to get out of bed because of the anxiety and fear that if we were together like this, I would kill her.

“Wait.”