Senpai x reader (Friday night funkin) oneshots

I just wanna give up

A/n🦐: a bit of a vent but also not
Oh and side note; I had a blast reading your comments on the last chapter. Since it was fun to write, I wanna do more oneshots like that in the future ;)
Tw: angst, depressive topics, swearing

"Hey y/n!" the voice of their boyfriend, Senpai greeted them as he walked into their room. He had taken it upon himself to help y/n with motivation for surviving the school year, and he totally wanted to spend time with you since you're his favorite person ever.

Y/n's mouth opened but they closed it before responding, their eyes darted across their screen once more. God damn, life really do be fucking y/n in the ass right now. Finals were coming up along with finishing up final projects and preparing to graduate which they prepared absolutely nothing for. When they tried to open social media to distract themselves it was filled with fucking stans terrorizing innocent people again which annoyed the hell of of y/n. Worst of all. This shit has prevented them from spending time with Senpai, he still did visit after school but y/n couldn't help but feel it just wasn't the same as when they went out together in their free time. Oh how y/n missed those carefree dates where there wasn't a thing to worry about and being purely fun. It threw in some guilt to their inner turmoil.

"Are you alright y/n?" Senpai frowned at their lack of response.

"Hi Senpai" they managed to let out an exhausted squeak. Y/n's eyes were cold, downcast at the floor ashamed to be seen like this by Senpai. There was a look of gentle concern on Senpai's face that irked the guilt in y/n for making him worry.

They sat upright, blinking quickly as if to brush it off, but they were far too late. Their boyfriend had noticed how completely drained they already were.

It hurt him to see y/n like this, but he couldn't just let you bottle it up. Kneeling down, he set his hands on y/n's shoulders half whispering "I love you y/n" then pulled them into a warm hug.

Hesitant at first, y/n asked. "What's this about? Did something happen?"

"No, but it seems like you're barely keeping yourself together and needed a reminder that even if you're like this I'll love you still." Senpai replied rubbing their back.

Y/n inevitably gave into his touch returning the hug. Their thoughts were getting sentimental and they buried their face in Senpai's chest, taking a few deep breaths to calm down. As much as y/n didn't want to show any signs of weakness they really couldn't keep everything up anymore.

"Senpai it's horrible- I- I just wanna give up" y/n murmured faintly.

Their boyfriend's cerulean eyes widened with concern as he instinctively held y/n closer.
"Wh- What do you mean?" Senpai tried to maintain calm, but he couldn't help but worry for y/n.

The hint of distress in his voice melted the last sliver of what was holding y/n together to look like a totally normal functional human being. They could feel tears begin to form in their eyes aware that Senpai would blame himself for your struggles, but that was the last thing they wanted to hear.

Facing him, they explained shakily "I'm just so done with this world. Shit has gone mad, and you're the only one keeping me going. And yet life is trying to take my time with you away from me." Y/n could feel tears streaming down their cheeks now. The truth was out, y/n winced looking away as they awaited Senpai's response. Y/n worried it must've been so selfish and petty of them to make a big deal out of this. They felt this might've been the end, Senpai would realize how much of annoying drama queen y/n was and their world would end right there.

"You're too hard on yourself y/n, did you know that?" His response snapped them back into reality as their eyes shot open. Senpai continued. "Sometimes it makes me worried that I wouldn't be able to protect you from yourself"

"H- huh?" Y/n gasped.

"I know that you're trying your best y/n, but please know that you don't need to force yourself to become something that everyone else would consider perfect.  And so what if there's people who say there's no such thing, cause to me you're the most closest to perfection. And it pains me that you don't agree with me in the slightest." He so earnestly tried to explain.

"But Senpai, I'm not even that good of a person." they interjected.

"You must have high standards for what makes a good person then if you don't think turning a selfish jerk into a loving boyfriend" he retorted.

"H- hey! Senpai no! At least you don't goof off all the time and get into all sorts of trouble like I do!" Y/n shot back.

"Well it livens things up don't you think? Much better than being boring, it just makes you that much more interesting." Senpai cooed as he cupped your cheeks and wiping a few tears away.

Y/n didn't know how to take this, apprehensions still infested their mind. "Do you mean it?" They asked, staring into his loving gaze.

Senpai nodded "I know I never say it much, but I do, and I'd prefer to show it since that's much easier, and sometimes I just can't help it cause you're too cute."

"Wait show? How?!?" Y/n's curiosity peaked.

"Well don't go blaming me when you were the one asking." He winked, entwining his fingers with yours before closing the space between the two of you with a deep kiss. Y/n was blushing red like a strawberry in complete shock. Pulling away, Senpai let go of y/n's hands to wrap them in another hug affectionately peppering your face with kisses.

"Okay! I get it! I get it!" Y/n exclaimed out of embarrassment, but Senpai was far from done with spoiling you with affection. "H- hey that tickles!" They giggled.

Hearing y/n giggle stole his attention with that precious smile of theirs leaving him awestruck. "Haha you're wide open Senpai! How about I give you a taste of your own medicine?" Y/n laughed, leaning in.

A/N: sorry for the short chapter, but hope you enjoyed it regardless