Life's Full of Your Love

Chapter 21 - Why Me?

Zara's P.O.V

I closed my door and leaned against it. What do I do? I sat down on the floor. Tears started to roll down my cheeks. Family or Hussain? I was thinking of telling my parents about Hussain but now, I'll have to get married to this Aftab sahab's son. But I love Hussain! I wiped my tears. I have to tell Hussain about this. I picked up my phone and called him. It started to ring. But how will Hussain help? Abu was always strict about his work. He won't let go of this marriage. So by calling Hussain, I'd be worrying him. I cut the call before Hussain could pick up. I can't let Hussain be worried for something he can't do anything about. He can't know about this. When I get married, Hussain will always be sad for me. Why should he be sad? I'll take all the pain. I need him to get over me. To stop loving me. So that he won't be pained. I punched the floor as a fresh bout of tears came running. Why is this happening to me? My phone started ringing. I looked at my phone. It was Hussain. I quickly straightened myself up and answered it.
"Hello?"
"Hey Zara. Sorry I couldn't answer your call. I was playing with Maha." He said. His voice made me feel so much better.
"Um, Hussain, can we meet up tomorrow at Central Park around 12?" I asked. My voice was shaky. Partly because I didn't want to do this.
"Yeah, of course. Are you okay? You sound like you're shivering." The concern in his voice made me feel worse.
"Yeah I'm fine. It's really cold." I lied.
"I suggest you go sit with a kambal and watch Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge while you think of me." Hussain laughed.
"Yeah sure. Bye."
"Bye." I cut the call. He doesn't deserve this.

The next day, I put on a long coat and went to Central Park. For some reason it was snowing today and very cloudy. I started walking and sat down on a bench. I felt so depressed. I didn't want to do this. But I have to. So that Hussain doesn't get hurt. I looked up and saw him coming towards me. I stood up and walked to him.
"Hey." He grinned.
"Hi." I said.
"Should we sit?" Hussain suggested. I shook my head.
"Hussain, I need to talk to you." I started.
"Yeah, go on."
I looked at his face which looked so happy being with me. Was I really going to do this?
"Hussain, we can't do this anymore."
"Do what? What are you talking about?" Hussain frowned.
"Look, we can't be together. I'm sorry but we just can't."
"Zara, yeh kya bakwaas bol rahe ho? (What nonsense are you saying?) Don't you love me?" Hussain looked at me. At that moment, I don't know what came over me but I shook my head.
"I'm sorry." I turned around before Hussain could see the tears in my eyes. Hussain held onto my right arm.
"Zara-" But I tugged it out of his grip and started to walk home.

Judai ka gham
Tujhe bhi hai
Judai ka gham
Mujhe bhi hai

I trudged through the snow wiping my tears the whole way. Why did you do this Zara? Why?

Hussain's P.O.V

I stood there for a moment before falling to my knees. Her words made me numb.

Judai ka gham
Tujhe bhi hai
Judai ka gham
Mujhe bhi hai

What did I do wrong? I love Zara. More than I love myself. But why doesn't she love me? What had happend between morning and now?

Zara's P.O.V

I arrived home and sat down on my bed. I turned on my phone to distract myself but my wallpaper happend to be me and Hussain from the Yaari shooting.

Tera mera milna
Kismat mein likha tha
Milke yun bichadna
Yeh kyun likha tha?

Hussain's P.O.V

I sat down on my bed. I didn't know how to feel. I just lost the love of my life.

Yeh kyun hui
Yeh dooriyan
Kaise hai yeh tanhai
Na jaanu mein
Na jaane tu
Yeh dooriyan kyun aayi

Zara's P.O.V

I couldn't control myself. My tears started to roll down faster than ever. Why was my life like this? What did I do wrong?

Milti hai judai kyun aisi
Jisay bhi pyaar hum karein
Milti hai saza kyun aisi
Jisay bhi wafa hum karein

Hussain's P.O.V

I couldn't handle myself. Tears started to roll down my cheek. What did I do wrong?! I felt so frustrated. I let out a huge scream. Why?! Why?! Why?!

Shehry's P.O.V

Najma went into the kitchen to help Mama when I heard a loud scream from Hussain's room. I quickly ran upstairs to Hussain's room. I saw him on his bed crying. Without thinking, I hugged him. Hussain kept crying onto my back. What happend?

Hussain's P.O.V

Shehry's hug made me cry even more. I just couldn't stop. I loved Zara that much.

Tu nahi saath mein
Par saath tera hai
Sab teri yaadon ke
Ab jeene mera hai

While Shehry hugged me, I saw Zara standing in the doorway, smiling at me. She was here! She didn't really break up with me. I smiled back. But slowly Zara vanished into thin air as my smile faded as well. It couldn't be my imagination. She must have been there.

Zara's P.O.V

Andhe hi rahe
Ghum su yeh dil
Pooche tha hai
Tera yeh dil
Tham rahe hai
Saansein meri
Tere bina
Mein kuch bhi nahi

Through my tear filled eyes, I could see Hussain sitting on my bed. When did he get here? And what was he doing here? But he smiled at me which made me feel so much better. I smiled back tearily. Until he started to disappear. My smile disappeared as well.
Why was this happening to me? What did I do to deserve such a thing?

A few days later, I was sitting with Najma in my room. The walima was done and so Najma was spending a few days with us until she goes back to Shehry's house. During the walima, I avoided Hussain. But I definitely didn't want to. His eyes were all red and he didn't look happy at all. I wanted to hug him. But I couldn't. I had just finished telling Najma about what had happend.
"You didn't do the right thing." Najma sighed.
"What could I have done? Abu is determined to get me married to this guy. If Hussain trys to stop him, it won't work. I'll get in trouble, he'll get in trouble and we'll both spend the rest of our lives in misery." I explained.
"Have you seen him? He's not the same Hussain anymore! He really loves you." Najma said, shaking my shoulder. I moved her hand off my shoulder.
"He'll get over it. He has to. Instead of both of us living our lives in misery, why don't I just take on the pain?" I laughed. Najma looked at me sympathetically and put her hand on my cheek.
"Why are you laughing pagal (crazy)? It's not that simple." Najma looked at me with glassy eyes.
"And why are you crying? You're married to the love of your life! Your life is perfect." I smiled.
"But your life isn't." She said. I sighed. The truth did hurt.

Guyssss :'( I'm sorry. Please vote, share, comment. Read my other Dhoombros fanfic - Always For You - and the picture on this chapter is of Hussain at Central Park just after Zara told him. :'( Sorry again.