Jess took a deep breath before pushing her key into the door. She had a taken advantage of the lighter summer evening and slowly made her way home. She knew that there was lots to talk about with her Mum and Aiden. She hadn't been trying to put any of it off, she had spent some time thinking, and if she was completely honest a lot of time talking to her bump. In every book/magazine she had been reading about pregnancy she had read they said from six months her bump and body were going to change every day, and she was loving every moment of it. All the fears about feeling fat had gone the first time she had felt her baby move.
Pushing open the front door she kicked off her shoes and walked into the front room. She smiled when she saw her Mum sat on the sofa. "Anyone would think you had been waiting up for me." She took off her bag and coat before sitting on the empty seat next to her Mum. Before thinking she wrapped her arms around her Mum and rested her head against her chest.
Karen stroked her daughters soft red hair before gently kissing her forehead. "I just wanted to make sure I was here in case you wanted to talk some more."
Jess looked up at her Mum before taking her hand to place on her bump. She put it where she could feel her baby kicking against her stomach. She looked up at her Mum and saw tears glistening in her eyes. "Sorry." Jess whispered the word.
"Don't apologise darling. I just well I'm happy my beautiful girl. You're going to be so good at this." Karen rubbed the spot on Jess' bump she had felt the baby kick, and she couldn't help but smile again as she felt another kick against her hand.
"It's all starting to come together, it all feels like it's actually happening." She moved her hands so she had them wrapped around her Mum. "It's amazing, I thought this was going to drive us apart...but I've never felt closer to you."
"You know what darling. I think I might just about be ready to be a Grandma." Karen surprised herself as she said it. "I'm here for you Jess and I meant it, we can push the exams back...child minding. I just don't want you to ever think that you're going to be on your own."
Jess had a small giggle. "Mmm. English Lit exam on the 7th June. Due date on the 8th June. I don't see the problem there." She winked at her Mum before pulling back slight and stretching with her hands rubbing over her bump.
"No problem there at all. I'll make sure that Janeece is on the sideline with the hot water and towels." Karen laughed at her youngest daughter. "Why do I get the impression that we're going to be delivering my granddaughter in the exam hall because you're too stubborn to tell anyone?"
Jess giggled. "Well I am my mothers daughter." She looked towards her Mum and tried a smile. "I really don't want to hurt Aiden...I'm falling in love with him...but this baby wont ever be his and I know that." She looked towards her Mum, it still amazed her that they were sitting so comfortably and talking like women.
"I see the way that he looks at you my darling, and the way he looks at your bump. You're both young and you never know what's going to happen." She smiled at her. "Just keep doing what you're doing and you'll be fine." She rubbed her daughters knee. "I am so ridiculously proud of you Jess." She lent forward and kissed her forehead.
Jess felt a tear swell in the corner of her eye. She lent across and hugged her Mum again. "I love you."
Karen couldn't help but smile. "I love you too." She stood up before pulling two catalogues from under the table. "I thought we could have a look at some bits and pieces before we go shopping. We do need to start somewhere with getting the nursery started. I always found it amazing how much more you needed than you could ever imagine."
Jess nodded. "That would be amazing." Jess lent back with one of the catalogues and started flicking through the pages. "I can't get over how expensive everything is though...I look at everything and wonder how we're ever going to get it all sorted." She looked through at the nursery sets and wanted to cry at how much they all were.
"Jess...I told you...I really don't want you to worry about any of this...you just need to decide what you want for her and we will get it." Karen looked over Jess' shoulder and made sure she took note of the cream and pink nursery furniture set that she was looking at.
"It just seems wrong though...I can't even provide for my own little girl..." Jess hated the fact that she couldn't buy everything she wanted. She believed her Mum that she was going to do it...but it didn't make her feel any easier about it.
"I want you to be able to focus on giving her all the love and attention you can. I don't want you to be sitting and worrying about getting her the things she needs. Let me enjoy spoiling my granddaughter...and you." She reached across and cupped Jess' face. "Please?"
Finally Jess nodded. "Ok..." She smiled and lent across to hug her Mum and just sit and enjoy the feeling of her stroking her hand through her hair.
