I Want To Unlove You

chapter 63

Geetha's pov :

I yawned and stretched my hands apart as I switched off my alarm sitting up on my bed hoping to wake up early than usual and not drift into sleep resisting the temptation the warm bed , thick blanket and many plushie pillows.

It was little hard yet I succeeded it may be one of the very few times I woke up so early.
It's just 5:45am.

I had many works pending for today...cleaning the house and even cooking food for us.

So I immediately worked on that...finally when it was 7:30 I swept and mopped the floor , freshened up and lighted a small Diya near the God's picture I usually worship.
Even though our home doesn't have a temple separately build for him...I tried to make use of one cabinet as an alternative.

After praying for God and asking him to grant my wishes....which were obviously related to Adi...

He is in my every prayer.
I want us to be together.

After that I removed the towel which were holding my wet hair as I dried them.

Even after 15 mins they aren't completely dry...I sighed in defeat as I clutched my hair with a small pin as I strided towards kitchen to prepare our food.
Just then the room door of Adi barged open that I stilled in my place for a second but I ignored him going towards  kitchen.

From yesterday night I have been having this self conversation going on continuously....

I know that I should not give up on my love when the situation is already like this... I may lost it forever.

But I was little...no no I am so upset.
And also the guilt I am feeling is like the stone in my shoes which I couldn't remove it how much ever I tried.

'Is thus how Adi felt back then???'
I questioned myself.

But the only answer I got was
' He might felt even worse...you knew now that you are married so you are atleast near him even after his rejection but him...I can't even imagine him in that condition but it was so ruthless of me to do that to him.
I even know that I will try harder next time if this isn't working out but for him there was no next chance.'

I shook my head as I thought I should have only positive thoughts....and we both will live happily.

The envy I felt when I see any lovey dovey couple infront of me will leave me forever as I will never get out of his arms.

I wonder how it would feel to hug him right now???
I mean our last hug was almost 3 years back...it's nothing bad to crave for good things right???

Thinking about all the positive things which can possibly happen in my life with a happy smile playing on my lips I cooked poha for our breakfast and packed some food for our lunch today as I got enough time to cook.

Eating in canteen daily won't be healthy...so I should not be lazy to wake up early anymore.

I just hope he eats lady's finger with rice.

I saw that it was already 8 :15 am so I walked to my room to get ready.
I braided my shoulder length hair and placed a bindi between my brows.
Eversince Dr.divi knew about our marriage I didn't mind adorning myself with sindoor openly.
It was my right....so even today I applied it on my hair partition and converted it up with my hair such that it will only be visible if one observes with much concentration.

I came to living room to see Adi who was fiddling with his fingers and waiting for me may be...sitting on the sofa.

"Let's have breakfast." I said breaking the silence.