NATASHA ROMANOFF
this is kinda an apology
WARNINGS!!
mentions of lack of self care
it starts sad but gets better i think
DISCLAIMER!!
no-one else perished expect for the original losses of natasha and vision...
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you'll gather all of her family, avengers, yelena, alexei and melina and her grave will be next to the blossom tree she talked so much about
a blossom tree because she got told her biological mother was buried under one and again hoped there was some truth to that
the both of you used to spend whole nights under the tree whilst she spoke to her mum, hoping somehow she could hear her daughter
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and you did, you had the best funeral possible. all avengers, yelena, alexei and melina attended. speeches were made and many a tear were shed
you wanted it simple and meaningful and it was
that was a couple of weeks ago and you had been visiting her grave everyday since, mostly accompanied by wanda and then occasionally by yelena or melina
today was just like any other, you had brought a single pink tulip to place next to her grave
you sat there in front of the marble slab, cross legged and forehead leaning on the cold stone
"i miss you" you whispered like you did every time before "i like to think you're somewhere... somewhere better, making up for all the lost time with your mum, telling her all of your random theories and thoughts like you used to under the cherry blossom tree. i hope she knows about your sacred ice-cream" a little water laugh left your lips "but i suppose wherever you are they've probably got an unlimited supply of it"
"that'd be nice" an all too familiar raspy voice spoke from behind you causing you to whip your head around so fast you'd definitely feel it later
you stared blankly at her for a couple of seconds while your brain caught up with what you were seeing
"you're not real" you croaked whilst shaking your head
"well last time i checked i'm very real" she joked walking closer to you and finally embracing you in a hug, a warm hug, one you didn't want to leave
"i hate you so, so much" you mumbled into her shoulder, silently crying as she held your head close to try and hide the fact a few tears escaped her eyes too
"how are you real?" you asking pulling your head away slightly but she only shrugged and hugged you tighter, silently telling you she'll explain later
"i thought you were dead..."
"detka... i- i" she was lost for words because quite honestly she saw how tough the last couple of weeks had been for you
she had watched you cry, scream and deny yourself the simple necessities of food and sleep over her death. she watched you loss control over your magic again and again but she also watched wanda help you over and over again. both you and wanda helped eachother mend
it tore nat apart not being able to help you, to hold you and just tell you that she was alive but at the end of the day it was just not safe enough for you if she came out from hiding
you wanted to hit her, scream at her, call her every name under the sun for leaving you, making you believe that she was gone and not coming back but you loved her too much and the fact that she was actually standing right in front of you clouded such thoughts
nuzzling her nose into the crook of your neck, nat took a deep inhale and exhale with the most content sigh possible "i missed that" she smiled
"sniffing me?" you cracked a dopey smile
"yep" she smiled back, popping the 'p' and repeating the action
"i know 'i'm sorry' is not enough and will never be enough for what i put you through but if i have to spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you... so be it, i'll-" she continued to ramble on about how she'll wait hand on foot for you and so on
you cut her off with a quick kiss to her lips "you don't need to do anything but be here with me and stay here" you once again returned to a whispered volume
"you don't hate me?" the redhead asked with a pout and slightly hopeful eyes
you cupped her cheeks and gave her your most passionate kiss which she deepened until oxygen became a problem "i love you too much to hate you"
a comfortable silence fell as the two of you held eachother close
"c'mon, yelena is gonna be so happy to see"
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