OFF-SIDE

𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖓

Octavia • 𝖆𝖌𝖊 𝖙𝖊𝖓
"Wow , is that a dog?" Chris says beside me and I smile as I stare at what he's motioning to , Brendan rolls his eyes and looks at us like we're crazy , Brendan is seriously no fun, Chris narrows his eyes at his non identical twin but Brendan just raises his middle finger in return and my eyes widen.

"She's ten!" Chris groans as he covers my eyes , I point at him and gasp "that's a bad thing, you shouldn't do that!" I say while staring again at the dog through the window, "I'm allowed to do this I'm a grown up now." He says simply before walking away to his bedroom , I raise my brows at Chris who just laughs , I humph and cross my hands over my chest "he's not grown up, you two are also kids." I say and his smile falls.

"No we are not." He raises a brow , you're just fourteen they act like they're 40 or something , he tilts his head studying me a little before smiling , and I can't help but grin back at him and re-adjust my glasses as I stare more at him, "where's Xan?"I ask curiously scanning the living room for him, "probably In his room, you know he thinks that we're not worth his time, isn't that what he said last time?" Chris shrugs and my stomach flips, I wish Xan would stay with us like all of my brothers do, but he says we aren't "mature" like him, I wonder if when I'm "mature" enough he'll ever become closer to us...

"Hey, don't think about him right now." He says smiling at me so big that my face breaks into a grin again then he starts tickling me all of sudden "nooo, letttt-gooo of meee." I say giggling beteeen breaths, he stops and I turn to look at him again , his face shining under the sunlight coming from the window.

Chris or as what mommy calls him-Christopher but he says it feels like the name sounds scary from her mouth so we all just call him Chris, he has green eyes like mine, and he's the only one out of my brothers who got dark skin like mine, that's why almost every person never believes that he and Brendan are twins.

but other than that we're so different, not just in the features, it's more like in our personalities, he's always so calm while I'm always hyper and jumping all over the place, Brendan says it's annoying but Chris says it's fine and doesn't bother him , I think he's the only one who doesn't get annoyed at me, maybe Cole too but not always...

He sighs a little then gets up then he blinks a Lot and uses the chair to stable him, Chris always used to get dizzy when he stands up, daddy says it's something about-iron? I don't know he takes meds for it anyway, I stand up beside him and hold his hand in mine trying to help him, he smiles at me and pulls me closer for a hug.

I feel his heart beats going too fast , I pull back and look at him, "ar-are you okay?" I ask softly and he nods weakly at me and flashes a smile of his, when the look on my face doesn't change he kisses my temple and smiles again, "I really Am okay, don't worry about me okay? Just go play with your cubes again.." he says and motions to the toys scattered beside me, I'd normally go but I don't know why my heart does this weird thing, and something tells me today isn't going to be a good day...

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Xander • 𝖆𝖌𝖊 𝖘𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖓
I stare at Octavia as she smiles at whatever Chris told her for a while before shutting the door behind me with a thud, my breathing turns harsh as I try to inhale normally, I remember the words dad said, breathe in and out, in and out...in and out..., after I calm my breath again I drop to the mattress and I can't help the feeling that creeps through my veins,

I stare at the doll in my drawer , it's been here for so long , my chin quivers a little as I consider wether I should finally give it to her or not, she kept begging dad and all our brothers to buy it for her for almost like a years and she still brings it up nowadays but she never asked me for it and once I eavesdropped through the door of my sister's room, when Cole asked her why she technically begged everyone for the doll except me, she just answered with "I don't want to expect him to buy it for me, because he won't Cole, you know that he won't." I remember the sentence word by word, it was about 3 years ago, I was fourteen.