Attaining His Broken Cloud - COMPLETED

Chapter 40

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Isabella Cloud

The saying I keep telling myself is not really worth it... when you love someone, you should not give up on your relationship even if that person was the one who's lacking. That's bullshit.

It's not worth it.

The pain is not worth it.

The suffering is not worth it.

The insecurities are not worth it.

Loving someone who's not in love with you is not worth it.

Sebastian is not worth risking my all.

Because of what happened in the last few days. I feel like I've lost my appetite for everything.

Hindi ako nakakatulog.

Hindi ko kayang magsalita.

Hindi ko kayang makisalamuha sa kahit na kanino.

Hindi ako nakikinig.

Hindi ako makausap ng maayos.

Ayaw ko nang maingay.

Ayaw ko nang kahit na sinong tao sa loob ng kwarto ko sa hospital.

Ayaw ko ng mga pagkaing ibinibigay nila sa akin.

Ayaw ko nang lahat-lahat.

I know I'm becoming a burden to my parents, friends, and to people who love me just like Mama.

Gusto kong tumakas sa lahat ng taong nakakakita sa akin. Gusto kong magluksa nang magluksa hanggang na mamanhid ang buong katawan ko.

Ang buhay ko... unti-unting nawalan ng sigla at saya nang araw na makita ko ang walang buhay kong anak na nakahiga sa stainless na lamesa.

The scene in the taxi the night I was devastated because Keith left me came to my mind again and again.

"Kaya mo bang pumasok sa loob anak? Pasensiya ka na, pwede kang tumuloy na muna kila, Gillion habang kami ng Nanay mo ay aayusin ang mga gamit upang makalipat na tayo," puno ng suyo na sabi sa akin ni Tatay kaya naman inilibot ko ang tingin ko sa buong condo ni Keith.

Nandito kami para kunin lahat ng gamit namin dahil kalalabas ko lang nang hospital.

"I'm fine," I murmured.

Dahan-dahan akong naglakad papataas.

Kaninang umalis kami sa hospital. Hindi ko nakita ni anino ni Keith na labis kong kinagagalak. Hindi ko kayang makita ang mukha niya.

I can't bear to see the man who chooses to be with the woman he truly loves more that the woman carrying his child in her womb.

Hindi ko pa kayang makita siya.

Hanggang ngayon siya pa rin ang sinisisi ko sa lahat nang nangyari sa akin ngayon.

Siya lang.

If he hadn't left and forgotten that I was with him, my son wouldn't be alive. He forgot me and left me without a word. He didn't even let me go home before going with Bea.

Keith and I's relationship was a mistake.

He just ruined my life, my self-esteem, and my worth.

The way my heart broke after everything that happened.

I don't know when I will start or if I can start again.

Everything is gone.

Our relationship as lovers, us as best friends, us as parents of our child. It's all ruined and I want to lose him too, I didn't gain anything from fighting in our relationship.